I just want to share a little something about myself. I'll be honest and say I'm a little different on here than I am in real life. You all sometimes get the raw unedited version of me. I run into people in all walks of life with all differing opinions on things. I must keep it professional so I find common ground with people instead. I work with rich people, poor people, mean people nice people.
I have been told that I am a very approachable person. People often say something like...I have no idea why I just told you all that personal stuff about myself when I don't even know you. Lol.
I think people find me trustworthy, that I am a good listener, that I validate them. One time I had a person tell me that I was one of the most humble people that he knew. It kinda crushed me and for the next month I wondered if my humility was some sort of hidden pride.
I realize I have people on here who think I'm not a very nice person....but little do they know...I am a thousand times harder on myself than they could ever be on me. I worry if I am a good enough father, electrician, friend, person...etc etc. The last year has been incredibly hard...sometimes I didn't know which way was up. There were a few months where at times I couldn't get myself to even leave my house. I was afraid of my phone, of disappointing the person on the other end in some way. It has been a rough go this last year and half.
Somehow, I managed to be a pretty good dad and keep a roof over our head and food in our bellies. I had a significant amount of money stolen from me, my confidence and self worth stolen from me....all new friends. I was in a dark place not very long ago....Tues...that cloud will be lifted from my life and I can finally move forward.
I imagine most of you have something going on..some struggle. Our burdens always seem the heaviest to ourselves.