Hi sister PaintMySpiritGold You dear sister are learning something early in life,that took me years to understand! Isaiah 45:15 Truly you are a God who hides himself,O God of Israel Savior! But why? And more important!! For what purpose when people like you are going through such hardship?
At 60 years of age,38 years of being in the Lord,I hope my answer will not only encourage you,but also I hope that through this revelation you will be able to help others such as we have both have gone through!
Anger is not a sin sis, be angry and sin not,be angry enough to do something about your situation, but do not allow your anger to transfer to others. You have the bible to believe in,what more do you want??
That was my answer from Holy Spirit!! LOL When I started to believe in what the word says over my feeling and emotion,God came out of hiding to help me! Your words mean a lot,he does not want you to beg for something that is already yours sis!!
But you have to get busy believing first! The enemy looks to keep our eyes and our mind on the present,but the Word tells us different!( 2 cor 4:16-18!!) Ours eyes must adjust to the light now sister,so much light can tend to hurt our eyes.
Until we stay in that light! Our eyes then really see what Jesus who loves you so much wants you to see!! His LOVE! But if you stay in the dark and never get used to the light of the Word,how great is our darkness then sis?
The bible is not just some book! It is a lifestyle fought with blood over it, to free us from all bondage! But we are required to stay in it! For staying out of truth leaves us in the dark.And feeling and emotion look to take over our lives,like being caught in a giant wave,and we have no control of where we are going.
We can feel sorry for ourself if we wish to, but we will also stay in the same place as well. Anger motivates us to move! To get with it! To stop being a child,and become a mature believer,so we can help others do the very same! You have a great gift,you have purpose!
First things first!( 2 cor 5:17-20!!) And to know without any doubt that God always does and always will love you!! ( eph 3:17-19!!) Your part in this sis?? To BELIEVE!! And that can only come from staying inside the light of the gospel himself! From belief and from belief only Jesus appears unto us!
Otherwise we will become like so many others did, who did not receive what is freely given!( mark 6:4-6) No fear,no doubt,only believe!( mark 5:35-36) Notice the scriptures sis?? You see just how important scripture is!
If you do not eat for a time your body will become weak,Holy Spirit in you can become weak with you do not feed him to!( john 4:31-34!!) If we say we believe in Jesus,how do we believe in begging? or tears? God hides himself from unbelief,and from tears of self. He sure did me!
Until i got mad,and woke up from my own sleep!( rom 13:11) Find a Church full of love in it,and become a partaker of that love sis,so you can stay encouraged and so you can encourage as well! Dust yourself off, wipe those tears from your eyes,and get into the race!( 1 cor 9:23-27) Yes it will take discipline! But you can do it sis!!
You now not only know you have purpose,but now you know what that purpose is!! To believe, and help others to do the same!WHY?? because of john 13:34! LOVE one another as i have loved you! ( 1 john 4:1 that is you sis!!His very beloved!! also you in verse 7,verse11,and perfected from knowing this love in verse 17-19!
You are not looking to gain victory sis,you move FROM VICTORY!!!( rom 8:35-39!!!) verse 37!!! You just have to do as I did,and that is get mad at the devil and start to believe in what Jesus has already done for you and me!!
Jesus has already given us all we will ever need!!( 2 peter 1:3-11) All we have to do is get with it sis!! LOL The ball is now in your court sis,and what you do with it,will decide where you will either stay at, or move forward in!!
Even Paul felt bad at times sis! Look what he said after all he went through! ( phil 3:12-14) Notice sis how he repeats himself, it is that important( verse 12-13!) talk about someone who went through stuff sis!!Look!!( 2 cor 11:23-30)
I hope you take this sister in the true love light i truly mean it in!! It would be so easy to hug you,and say there, there sister to you,and join you in the pity party we all have thrown,but that would not help you!
Your life is very important sis!!To Jesus, and to me!! For without you sister, who could the Lord bring to you to help? How many would be lost or hurt without you being here? Hey sis!! I know life is tough!! I served 2 tours in Vietnam,I have been to hell and back again!
But if not for the Word of our Jesus, I would have never got out of the pit!( psalm 40:1-3!!) And i would have never through his great love for me, and to me,even be able to write you this in love from him inside me sis!
After I got mad and decided to you what I am encouraging you to do,i received this from Jesus in me!! i present this to you in love,and to confirm God's love for you as well!!( Isaiah 41:9-13!!!!)
May the Lord's love be upon you, and may you never doubt his love again!! amen!!( psalm 27:13!!) I sure would have despaired had i not BELIEVED!!! I would see the goodness of God in the Land of the living!! The land we live in right now sister!! daily to!! amen!