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I am in dire need of prayer. My entire life feels as though it's spinning out of control and I am not in a position to do anything about it. The last time I made a prayer request, it was for my health, which has remained relatively the same (not good). Very little has changed for the better, save for a growth in my faith and a greater desire to seek the Lord's will. I know nothing is more powerful than the Lord we serve, and I also know we are called to seek prayer and congregation with our brethren, especially in times of strife. That being said, I'll keep it as brief as possible (or so I say lol).
I struggle with anxiety and depression. I come by my worrying honestly- a trait noted in both of my parents- and generally I can keep it under control with little effort or supplement (I hate using medications unless absolutely necessary). Unfortunately, several events that have transpired of the last few years have taken my normal anxiety levels and skyrocketed them to hellish heights (or depths, if you like). I find solace in my prayer time and whilst reading scripture but, not long after I finish, the horrible "butterflies of death" rise up in my stomach and I have to utilize every ounce of sanity and reasoning left in my head to maintain composure and not freak out. I have many valid concerns, including finances and ailments, but I find my greatest fears usually have no face, they're completely inexplicable and terrifying. I would never suppose I was possessed, given I know the Lord lives within me, but I don't know how else to explain the sensation when the terror grips me. If all of my paranoia and mental distress is a minor taste of what Hell is like, then I am even MORE thankful for the gracious sacrifice that Jesus gave.
Put simply, I am at a place where there are no clear choices to be made that take me anywhere. My thinking process is muddled with anxiety and stress, my physical body is wrought with ailments and the only things keeping me going are my hope in what comes after this life, the joy I have in Christ, and the love of God, my girlfriend, family, and friends. I may feel alone sometimes, but I know I am never truly am and that God will use my situation for His will.
Please pray that I may continue to find patience, wisdom, and joy in the arms of Christ, and that I can do His will in spite of my weakened state of health and mind. It would be greatly appreciated.
Much love and blessings!
I struggle with anxiety and depression. I come by my worrying honestly- a trait noted in both of my parents- and generally I can keep it under control with little effort or supplement (I hate using medications unless absolutely necessary). Unfortunately, several events that have transpired of the last few years have taken my normal anxiety levels and skyrocketed them to hellish heights (or depths, if you like). I find solace in my prayer time and whilst reading scripture but, not long after I finish, the horrible "butterflies of death" rise up in my stomach and I have to utilize every ounce of sanity and reasoning left in my head to maintain composure and not freak out. I have many valid concerns, including finances and ailments, but I find my greatest fears usually have no face, they're completely inexplicable and terrifying. I would never suppose I was possessed, given I know the Lord lives within me, but I don't know how else to explain the sensation when the terror grips me. If all of my paranoia and mental distress is a minor taste of what Hell is like, then I am even MORE thankful for the gracious sacrifice that Jesus gave.
Put simply, I am at a place where there are no clear choices to be made that take me anywhere. My thinking process is muddled with anxiety and stress, my physical body is wrought with ailments and the only things keeping me going are my hope in what comes after this life, the joy I have in Christ, and the love of God, my girlfriend, family, and friends. I may feel alone sometimes, but I know I am never truly am and that God will use my situation for His will.
Please pray that I may continue to find patience, wisdom, and joy in the arms of Christ, and that I can do His will in spite of my weakened state of health and mind. It would be greatly appreciated.
Much love and blessings!