Thank you all for your prayers.
*sigh*
I'm not really sure how to go about this. It's not that I'm cold hearted, but I don't want to cry for the sake of my family. My grandmother she cried more then enough for us. She's the one taking it hard. Along with my cousin, who is like a big sister to me. We're a small family, so, when one of us goes, it's hard for some of them. I view my cousins as brothers and sisters for I'm an only child. I've played with some of them, also some of the older ones took care of me. Taught me some things about life. And my grandmother, she's an elder in our little community. So, when shes in pain, people come over to try and console her.
That very night, there were a lot of people at that little house. We as a native community try to respect our elders and revere them. Slowly they're passing on one by one. And when I see her in pain, that's only adding to the pain of losing her son, who was in a hunting accident several years back.
At one point she was out there with him and another of her grandchildren. He originally took care of the one who passed. But she raised them. She found it best to leave her house and community to go out into the city and take care of her children.
It was when I decided to go to her house and take care of it for her. Ever since then, I've been living there doing what I can do to keep it safe. I've dealt with a lot when it came to my "friends" dealing drugs and having their own parties there. That house has always been home for me.... I thought I could at least try to do some good for my grandmother...
I'm rambling.
But nonetheless, I sincerely thank those who actually prayed for my family. And I pray that God bless you all.
