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maria24
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[h=2]MY FINAL DESTINATION[/h]#100615-MC
reckless,dreamless,
pointless,meaningless,
without vision, without mission and
even without goals in life.
its hard without direction,
its hard not knowing your purpose,
and its even harder when you don't know your worth..
rocky road, big mountains
and even heavy rains,
i kept on going,
even it takes forever.
i always keep on wondering,
why i'm still living?,
who i am living for?
and when will be the sun goes down?
sometimes i run,
sometimes i hide,
sometimes i'm scared,
and sometimes i don't care.
since this life is useless,
i decided to end,
in this miserable heart and mind,
nobody can fix it.
but i was wrong,
making my life pitiful,
and there is someone who loves me
beyond my imagination.
He saved my cruel life,
and turned to heavenly right.
to become His child,
is the greatest achievement i have.
i served and love him wholeheartedly.
until one day i was lost,
my heart change,
and my eagerness fade away.
i need to choose,
turning back or forward,left or right.
but one thing i'm for sure,
his love for me will forever endure.
its not easy to come back
after you die and have life,
guilt and shame is in my heart,
i don't know now where i start.
making myself disconnected
is the first thing I've made
but it was the biggest mistake to take
and it takes courage to handle it.
I've thought i will become happy
in my choices of being free,
enjoying my self,
that only lead to the fullness of foolishness.
it came to an end,
that i hate of being self-centered.
how will i ever go back
the life with full of love and light.
someone told me,
"go back to your first love
and serve Him fully,
the joy He brings is for eternity."
now i'm committed,
with complete gladness He bring.
my final destination,
is to be with God forever.
pointless,meaningless,
without vision, without mission and
even without goals in life.
its hard without direction,
its hard not knowing your purpose,
and its even harder when you don't know your worth..
rocky road, big mountains
and even heavy rains,
i kept on going,
even it takes forever.
i always keep on wondering,
why i'm still living?,
who i am living for?
and when will be the sun goes down?
sometimes i run,
sometimes i hide,
sometimes i'm scared,
and sometimes i don't care.
since this life is useless,
i decided to end,
in this miserable heart and mind,
nobody can fix it.
but i was wrong,
making my life pitiful,
and there is someone who loves me
beyond my imagination.
He saved my cruel life,
and turned to heavenly right.
to become His child,
is the greatest achievement i have.
i served and love him wholeheartedly.
until one day i was lost,
my heart change,
and my eagerness fade away.
i need to choose,
turning back or forward,left or right.
but one thing i'm for sure,
his love for me will forever endure.
its not easy to come back
after you die and have life,
guilt and shame is in my heart,
i don't know now where i start.
making myself disconnected
is the first thing I've made
but it was the biggest mistake to take
and it takes courage to handle it.
I've thought i will become happy
in my choices of being free,
enjoying my self,
that only lead to the fullness of foolishness.
it came to an end,
that i hate of being self-centered.
how will i ever go back
the life with full of love and light.
someone told me,
"go back to your first love
and serve Him fully,
the joy He brings is for eternity."
now i'm committed,
with complete gladness He bring.
my final destination,
is to be with God forever.