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I think this frustration was put on me, almost as soon as I got "saved".
The year was 1986, and I was just 6 years old. My dad explained to me about salvation. He just simply explained that we are all sinners on the way to hell. But there is a man by the name of Jesus who paid for our sins. He explained some other stuff too. But we don't need to go into that here. I've talked about it in other posts.
The basic idea of Salvation worked like this.
You admit that your sinner who needs a savor.
You tell God that you believe that Jesus died for my sins and rose again.
You ask Jesus to forgive you of your sins, and come into your heart. Which also means the holy spirit is supposed to come in too.
That all seems really simple. Until you got to start living out your Christian life. At that age there wasn't that much temptation. But as I grew up, things began to become more challenging. For example, I got a sex drive now.
Theology starts to take a hold. Do you believe in enteral security or conditional security. I was raised to believe in conditional security. That means if you sin and don't repent again, then you are back to being unsaved again. Or if you loose your faith, you are also back to being unsaved again. They don't typically believe that you instantly loose your salvation. You got to persist in the same sin for a x period of time, while resisting the holy spirit.
The problem I have is the fact that I can not seem to on top of my sins. So I started looking into eternal security. As I look at things, both views make some really points, and I got no idea who is right. Probably never will.
The year was 1986, and I was just 6 years old. My dad explained to me about salvation. He just simply explained that we are all sinners on the way to hell. But there is a man by the name of Jesus who paid for our sins. He explained some other stuff too. But we don't need to go into that here. I've talked about it in other posts.
The basic idea of Salvation worked like this.
You admit that your sinner who needs a savor.
You tell God that you believe that Jesus died for my sins and rose again.
You ask Jesus to forgive you of your sins, and come into your heart. Which also means the holy spirit is supposed to come in too.
That all seems really simple. Until you got to start living out your Christian life. At that age there wasn't that much temptation. But as I grew up, things began to become more challenging. For example, I got a sex drive now.
Theology starts to take a hold. Do you believe in enteral security or conditional security. I was raised to believe in conditional security. That means if you sin and don't repent again, then you are back to being unsaved again. Or if you loose your faith, you are also back to being unsaved again. They don't typically believe that you instantly loose your salvation. You got to persist in the same sin for a x period of time, while resisting the holy spirit.
The problem I have is the fact that I can not seem to on top of my sins. So I started looking into eternal security. As I look at things, both views make some really points, and I got no idea who is right. Probably never will.
For instance, the fact that you are worried because you are still sinning is a good sign that you are who you claim to be (because worrying about sin is atypical for someone who is not saved, especially if the anxiety that you feel over it comes from your affection from God and your desire to continually please/honor/glorify Him in the here and now, instead of your anxiety simply being the result of the fear of Hell in the age to come). 
