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Shadowwolg
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Upfront, I say, I am responsible for my choices., no one else. I have chosen to indulge in this addiction, no one forced me,....However, there are some underlining factors that chose me, that I had no say in what was going on that prepared me for the choices I made... I am a survivor of child abuse, molestation for 3 i/2 years, porn was available to view, and as kids, we did, and i did experiment as a kid with older guys...having been in counseling, i have learned that i learned that love, intimacy was linked to sex. , for years, i knew that i couldn't say no, if a guy would pursue sex... so early on i chose not to date. i wanted to obey God and be pure...even though i didn't fall/give into temptation, until 2010... i often had thoughts of sex, it doesn't take long for me to make something dirty, and i was often worried if people knew what went on my head, would they still like me.... sooooo. 2010... the addiction part of my life's journey took a twist... here in the next several posts , i am going to try to write out my thoughts and what God has been doing to work through me to be a better me.