Dear brothers and sisters,
It's been a long time since I asked prayers for Mom. I stopped as I was getting depressed reinforcing the tragic events in my mind by writing in my journal and here as well. Our forum has been a blessing in redirecting my depressed mind/ thoughts from the daily stresses that caused my health serious decline beyond what I can handle.
The other topics and funny videos helped me to refocus and be like a normal person at those times and helps me sleep. However my Mom died and you deserve to be filled in on her outcome as you are my true brothers and sisters.
Many of you prayed for my Mom who fell off her couch while sleeping and cut her head on the coffee table. She was eating and drinking fine, very independent and well up to this point.
Her neighbor friend called an ambulance. Had I known, I would have bandaged and treated the cut and she would've been just fine and doing well today.
I've done surgical wound treatments from serious bites, deep tears, crush injuries, puncture wounds and have always had successful results on wildlife and on domestic animals as surgical asst/ tech for an animal hospital.
A simple superficial laceration on the forehead is no reason for umpteen tests, scans and padding insurance bills beyond ridiculous. In fact that is what often leads to harm by the Medical hospital money machine.
The love of money is the root of all evil. An evil MD at the ER threatened Mom to submit to admission to be admitted to stay against her will. My half brother refused to contact me until he realized she was put into a dire situation he couldn't handle over a week later!
They claimed she had aspiration pneumonia.
IF that was the case, then she would be better off at home under my care than those worthless butchers.
I have had multiple consultations with much better physicians concerning Mom's treatment. I could have handled it myself with an occasional break from my brother and his family. I was bluntly told excuses why none of the 4 of them would help. I decided to do so all by myself. Money can be replaced, but family is special, especially MOM!
A nurse in front of me as I kneeled next to Mom said to the one taking notes with a physician nearby and other staff that "she heard the tablet go down the wrong way."
Folks, That did not cause a cough or gag reflex. I was right there and did not hear a thing, however it was the excuse they needed for a move to the medical ICU Unit at the teaching hospital. I asked the physician there some questions that he was extremely scared about and decided to give me some obviously pre-rehearsed spiel.
The procedure was mapped out. She would be vented, then the policy is the second ventilator inserted directly into her lungs through her mouth. That would be followed by a tracheostomy where they would cut her throat and insert a tube through the neck. I objected to all if this, giving sound reasons, however my Mom made the deadly choice of making my half bro the medical power.
The procedure was done while I was in the waiting room early morning because I spent the night.
I have many pages of notes that I will spare for sake of brevity. I'm sorry to those who followed my previous prayer request thread that I stopped abruptly. I was extremely stressed and tired from lack of sleep at that point. I also had concerns about the possibility of making a mistake that would be used against me if I decided to sue. I never wanted to sue, I just wanted Mom back home to recover from the trauma and incredible suffering that the "health care professionals" caused us.
To get my first post under the word length limit, I have to break this long post into two parts. Sorry if there's a break in continuity.
I will try to keep it clear by leaving the intro and closing prayer requests. The rest will be in the second post.
Since they medically murdered her, I have been trying to gather evidence. I will get no help from anyone so I must gain strength to accomplish that as one of my goals. Please pray for my speedy and complete recovery. Since then I have had many problems that I never discussed or asked for prayers. I need help though. I wouldt go to some MD if I had a million dollars, so I have been studying the best God-given Natural based free information I can find online and take the appropriate classes there.
I am very grateful for you, my brothers and sisters that in reality are family members. I don't know how I can see my half brother as when we were children now after all that. It is truly sad to lose him too.
My natural family is gone now, but the Lord reminds me of my family of believers in Christ.
I won't list all requests, but the highlights for prayer are the following.
1. I had many symptoms of turbo cancer. I lost a lot of blood from internal bleeding. My intestines quit working for a time. God has corrected that. I can now digest food. The bleeding and blockage has healed. Praise the Lord!
2. No appetite. However I eat a scheduled meal every day for strength. Most of the time it's rice and beans, and often some meat. I felt guilty about eating and list my appetite since whatever week Mom was in the hospital, but I do like to talk food as it helps a lot.
3. Heart condition. Stress Induced Cardiomyopathy. The short of it is that my heart is inflamed as are my blood vessels. My heart is badly misshapen with the left side enlarged while the right is weak and atrophied. The left side tries to compensate for the right. The right ventricle valve is weak too. I had fribulation, irregular heartbeats constantly for a long time.
Now it's just pressure and some discomfort, especially sleeping. I have trouble lying on my side. It puts pressure on it. With God's help and a few of the proper supplements, it's much better now, but have to keep up with them, avoiding stress as much as possible.
3. Exhaustion and tired all the time. It gives me serious brain fog and affects my memory.
That is from the heart problem, depression, the stress and ...
4. Malnourishment
My hair falls out a lot and tired all the time. I get down on myself because I feel so lazy. I'm not myself and have to keep trying to encourage myself because nobody else has or does except for those who do here. I am discouraged and have to stay in the Word at least twice per day for strength. Stress prevents the body from absorbing nutrients. I can feel it, but it isn't as bad as before.
5. My sister is dead. I discovered that when we tried to contact family for Mom's funeral. I don't know much about it and can't go into that right now, because I'm having enough trouble handling what has occurred over the months.
6. I have no more family.
My Dad was killed at the Clarksburg VA Hospital.
Now Mom and
my sister died too.
The first three were not natural causes. Having a family member killed by those ways to me seems tougher than natural causes, as devastating as any death is. There's times I feel I've failed them. That may or may not be true, but it feels that way at times.
Then I hate myself for regrets. It's tough to forgive these people that harmed my family and took them from me.
7. Sleep... I don't have many nightmares now, but was re-experiencing vivid night terrors of Mom's death at times. I can now get 2-5 hours a night on average.
Often wake up with bad thoughts and pain.
8. I have had the idea that everything can be put in hold until the biggest priority of Mom was taken care of. Then I focussed on her, while spending all my savings for food and utilities. I closed the business I was going to open and only have the hardware that nobody will likely buy. That's another stressor losing that dream, but must move forward.
I applied to an employment agency and need a job immediately. Please pray that I'll get hired next week.
Even then, There is no way I can make enough money in time. I just got a notice from the county sheriff's office that state property back taxes are overdue and I owe $2,392.
My home will be sold October 31 at auction.
There are a lot of challenges that I can only do so much about. Each one is slowly improving. The last one #8 slipped my mind and I can't afford to lose everything. Please pray as this is so urgent.
God has been so kind and has answered a lot of prayers in the past. I just don't have a clear head and am open to wisdom for the immediate need.
Thank you all and I love you.
It's been a long time since I asked prayers for Mom. I stopped as I was getting depressed reinforcing the tragic events in my mind by writing in my journal and here as well. Our forum has been a blessing in redirecting my depressed mind/ thoughts from the daily stresses that caused my health serious decline beyond what I can handle.
The other topics and funny videos helped me to refocus and be like a normal person at those times and helps me sleep. However my Mom died and you deserve to be filled in on her outcome as you are my true brothers and sisters.
Many of you prayed for my Mom who fell off her couch while sleeping and cut her head on the coffee table. She was eating and drinking fine, very independent and well up to this point.
Her neighbor friend called an ambulance. Had I known, I would have bandaged and treated the cut and she would've been just fine and doing well today.
I've done surgical wound treatments from serious bites, deep tears, crush injuries, puncture wounds and have always had successful results on wildlife and on domestic animals as surgical asst/ tech for an animal hospital.
A simple superficial laceration on the forehead is no reason for umpteen tests, scans and padding insurance bills beyond ridiculous. In fact that is what often leads to harm by the Medical hospital money machine.
The love of money is the root of all evil. An evil MD at the ER threatened Mom to submit to admission to be admitted to stay against her will. My half brother refused to contact me until he realized she was put into a dire situation he couldn't handle over a week later!
They claimed she had aspiration pneumonia.
IF that was the case, then she would be better off at home under my care than those worthless butchers.
I have had multiple consultations with much better physicians concerning Mom's treatment. I could have handled it myself with an occasional break from my brother and his family. I was bluntly told excuses why none of the 4 of them would help. I decided to do so all by myself. Money can be replaced, but family is special, especially MOM!
A nurse in front of me as I kneeled next to Mom said to the one taking notes with a physician nearby and other staff that "she heard the tablet go down the wrong way."
Folks, That did not cause a cough or gag reflex. I was right there and did not hear a thing, however it was the excuse they needed for a move to the medical ICU Unit at the teaching hospital. I asked the physician there some questions that he was extremely scared about and decided to give me some obviously pre-rehearsed spiel.
The procedure was mapped out. She would be vented, then the policy is the second ventilator inserted directly into her lungs through her mouth. That would be followed by a tracheostomy where they would cut her throat and insert a tube through the neck. I objected to all if this, giving sound reasons, however my Mom made the deadly choice of making my half bro the medical power.
The procedure was done while I was in the waiting room early morning because I spent the night.
I have many pages of notes that I will spare for sake of brevity. I'm sorry to those who followed my previous prayer request thread that I stopped abruptly. I was extremely stressed and tired from lack of sleep at that point. I also had concerns about the possibility of making a mistake that would be used against me if I decided to sue. I never wanted to sue, I just wanted Mom back home to recover from the trauma and incredible suffering that the "health care professionals" caused us.
To get my first post under the word length limit, I have to break this long post into two parts. Sorry if there's a break in continuity.
I will try to keep it clear by leaving the intro and closing prayer requests. The rest will be in the second post.
Since they medically murdered her, I have been trying to gather evidence. I will get no help from anyone so I must gain strength to accomplish that as one of my goals. Please pray for my speedy and complete recovery. Since then I have had many problems that I never discussed or asked for prayers. I need help though. I wouldt go to some MD if I had a million dollars, so I have been studying the best God-given Natural based free information I can find online and take the appropriate classes there.
I am very grateful for you, my brothers and sisters that in reality are family members. I don't know how I can see my half brother as when we were children now after all that. It is truly sad to lose him too.
My natural family is gone now, but the Lord reminds me of my family of believers in Christ.
I won't list all requests, but the highlights for prayer are the following.
1. I had many symptoms of turbo cancer. I lost a lot of blood from internal bleeding. My intestines quit working for a time. God has corrected that. I can now digest food. The bleeding and blockage has healed. Praise the Lord!
2. No appetite. However I eat a scheduled meal every day for strength. Most of the time it's rice and beans, and often some meat. I felt guilty about eating and list my appetite since whatever week Mom was in the hospital, but I do like to talk food as it helps a lot.
3. Heart condition. Stress Induced Cardiomyopathy. The short of it is that my heart is inflamed as are my blood vessels. My heart is badly misshapen with the left side enlarged while the right is weak and atrophied. The left side tries to compensate for the right. The right ventricle valve is weak too. I had fribulation, irregular heartbeats constantly for a long time.
Now it's just pressure and some discomfort, especially sleeping. I have trouble lying on my side. It puts pressure on it. With God's help and a few of the proper supplements, it's much better now, but have to keep up with them, avoiding stress as much as possible.
3. Exhaustion and tired all the time. It gives me serious brain fog and affects my memory.
That is from the heart problem, depression, the stress and ...
4. Malnourishment
My hair falls out a lot and tired all the time. I get down on myself because I feel so lazy. I'm not myself and have to keep trying to encourage myself because nobody else has or does except for those who do here. I am discouraged and have to stay in the Word at least twice per day for strength. Stress prevents the body from absorbing nutrients. I can feel it, but it isn't as bad as before.
5. My sister is dead. I discovered that when we tried to contact family for Mom's funeral. I don't know much about it and can't go into that right now, because I'm having enough trouble handling what has occurred over the months.
6. I have no more family.
My Dad was killed at the Clarksburg VA Hospital.
Now Mom and
my sister died too.
The first three were not natural causes. Having a family member killed by those ways to me seems tougher than natural causes, as devastating as any death is. There's times I feel I've failed them. That may or may not be true, but it feels that way at times.
Then I hate myself for regrets. It's tough to forgive these people that harmed my family and took them from me.
7. Sleep... I don't have many nightmares now, but was re-experiencing vivid night terrors of Mom's death at times. I can now get 2-5 hours a night on average.
Often wake up with bad thoughts and pain.
8. I have had the idea that everything can be put in hold until the biggest priority of Mom was taken care of. Then I focussed on her, while spending all my savings for food and utilities. I closed the business I was going to open and only have the hardware that nobody will likely buy. That's another stressor losing that dream, but must move forward.
I applied to an employment agency and need a job immediately. Please pray that I'll get hired next week.
Even then, There is no way I can make enough money in time. I just got a notice from the county sheriff's office that state property back taxes are overdue and I owe $2,392.
My home will be sold October 31 at auction.
There are a lot of challenges that I can only do so much about. Each one is slowly improving. The last one #8 slipped my mind and I can't afford to lose everything. Please pray as this is so urgent.
God has been so kind and has answered a lot of prayers in the past. I just don't have a clear head and am open to wisdom for the immediate need.
Thank you all and I love you.
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