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LouiseDritz
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No, I'm not healed completely, yes, I do still get depressed often. Yes, I still sometimes have bitter thoughts, yes, I hold grudges sometimes. But the Lord has shown me many things during this time in my life.
When I was thirteen, just three weeks after my thirteenth birthday, I was kidnapped by two men, who I'd never seen before. They sexually, verbally and physically abused me. I was rescued the day I probably would have died, and I felt so angry at times towards the people who made the 911 phone call because they heard screams, yeah, I just wished I had died that evening, as I probably would have. But I was airlifted to a hospital and I was taken care of, I wished many times after that that I would die, and then I began thinking about suicide. My life stunk in my opinion, I was paralyzed from my waist down, I was depressed all the time, I suffered severe mental trauma, I couldn't get up and do the things I wanted to do. I hated myself, I hated the two men, I hated the people who called 911! I started getting serious about suicide, I kept thinking about it. I was tired of people staring at me, I was tired of people making comments, I was tired of my unpurity. I was so sick of myself that I finally decided one day that I would just kill myself. I was planning it out in my mind, I was thinking how I should kill myself, but then I heard God speaking to me, he was telling me that I was his child, that he loved me. That I was not alone. He told me that he was doing all this for a reason, he told me that he was always there for me. He also told me to read my bible, and to pray continually to him. I did that, I started praying and praying, then I joined cc, and asked for people to pray for me. I have asked for advice, and gotten it. I have been helped so much on here, that God has truly helped me not to even think about committing suicide, I have not thought about it for at least a month and a half, and I plan to never think of it again! Just please keep praying for me, as satan would very much like to make me think about sad things, and not happy things, and would like me to kill myself. Just pray, please pray for me!
Also, a big thanks to all of y'all for y'alls prayers!!
With Christs love,
~Louise
When I was thirteen, just three weeks after my thirteenth birthday, I was kidnapped by two men, who I'd never seen before. They sexually, verbally and physically abused me. I was rescued the day I probably would have died, and I felt so angry at times towards the people who made the 911 phone call because they heard screams, yeah, I just wished I had died that evening, as I probably would have. But I was airlifted to a hospital and I was taken care of, I wished many times after that that I would die, and then I began thinking about suicide. My life stunk in my opinion, I was paralyzed from my waist down, I was depressed all the time, I suffered severe mental trauma, I couldn't get up and do the things I wanted to do. I hated myself, I hated the two men, I hated the people who called 911! I started getting serious about suicide, I kept thinking about it. I was tired of people staring at me, I was tired of people making comments, I was tired of my unpurity. I was so sick of myself that I finally decided one day that I would just kill myself. I was planning it out in my mind, I was thinking how I should kill myself, but then I heard God speaking to me, he was telling me that I was his child, that he loved me. That I was not alone. He told me that he was doing all this for a reason, he told me that he was always there for me. He also told me to read my bible, and to pray continually to him. I did that, I started praying and praying, then I joined cc, and asked for people to pray for me. I have asked for advice, and gotten it. I have been helped so much on here, that God has truly helped me not to even think about committing suicide, I have not thought about it for at least a month and a half, and I plan to never think of it again! Just please keep praying for me, as satan would very much like to make me think about sad things, and not happy things, and would like me to kill myself. Just pray, please pray for me!
Also, a big thanks to all of y'all for y'alls prayers!!
With Christs love,
~Louise
. What an awful thing for a anyone to go through. I'm so happy that you heard God's voice and are turning to Him for healing.
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