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You have a very difficult road to walk. Are you married now? I would like to see you reconcile with your parents. I know how much I love my children, and although if one had gotten a girl pregnant or gotten pregnant, I would have been disappointed, but it would not stop me from loving them. Even if I got mad at them, I would desperately want them to contact me, and have contact with my grandchildren. So try and contact them again. I am sure they want to hear from you again. If not, then they have forgotten that they are also sinners, and God instructs us to forgive others, as he has forgiven us.
Are you living the way God wants you to live? Do you read your Bible and go to church? Are you praying and getting to know God better? God wants us to have a relationship with us, and the only way to do that, is to read the Bible, to pray, and also to have fellowship and learn from other believers.
Finally the most important thing is to commit your life to Christ. That means not only saying you believe, but repenting of your sin. God knows we are all imperfect, but he sends the Holy Spirit to guide and to lead us. I also pray you find a Bible believing church, where people will accept you, and maybe help you through this very difficult time. This means live in right relationship with God. And God will help you make those difficult choices about the things in your life that are not God's will or way.
Praying for your parents to accept you back and also for you to find some help in your life.