I do need people in my life(another brothers or sisters)with whom i can fellowship and whom can encourage me in those trials that i am going through right now.It's like i feel there is no God.I mean,if He should be up there why He is this silent?
God hides himself from people so that we search Him out. Jesus said "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Matthew 7:7 I believe he is testing to see if we are committed enough to Him to search for Him. That is only a very very small part of it. Most of the reason I don't yet understand.
Why He does not answer my prayers? James 4:3 says "When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures."
I am in total distress and i am falling into it more and more,more and more. It's like i need a rescuing hand,a rescuing hand wich can pull me back from falling...
The Holy Spirit (God) is there to comfort you. 1 Corinthians 1 "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort; 4 who comforts us in all our affliction, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, through the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. 5 For as the sufferings of Christ abound to us, even so our comfort also abounds through Christ. 6 But if we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation. If we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you the patient enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer. 7 Our hope for you is steadfast, knowing that, since you are partakers of the sufferings, so also are you of the comfort. 8 For we don’t desire to have you uninformed, brothers,* concerning our affliction which happened to us in Asia, that we were weighed down exceedingly, beyond our power, so much that we despaired even of life. 9 Yes, we ourselves have had the sentence of death within ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves, but in God who raises the dead, 10 who delivered us out of so great a death, and does deliver; on whom we have set our hope that he will also still deliver us; 11 you also helping together on our behalf by your supplication; that, for the gift bestowed on us by means of many, thanks may be given by many persons on your behalf. 12 For our boasting is this: the testimony of our conscience, that in holiness and sincerity of God, not in fleshly wisdom but in the grace of God we behaved ourselves in the world, and more abundantly toward you. 13 For we write no other things to you, than what you read or even acknowledge, and I hope you will acknowledge to the end; 14 as also you acknowledged us in part, that we are your boasting, even as you also are ours, in the day of our Lord Jesus." Draw near to Him and He will draw near to you (James 4:8). Cling to Him in your time of trouble. Psalm 18:2 "The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."
I just cannot copy with what is going on in my life at this time.I just can't.I have tried everything and anything.It just didn't work out.I am asking myself right now: am i like Job ? And if i am then in no way i can come out of these challenges just because i am not like him,just because i am not Job.Period.All i know is that i am at the lowest point in my life right now and i cannot make any steps forward.
How are you like or not like Job?
What do you mean by making steps forward?
I am right on this spot and cannot move.It might be easier for you(those who are older in Christ than me and those who have so much more faith than me)to say to me words like: don't worry,God is control or whatever other words of encouragements but,believe me,i am not encouraged nor moved by these words ! Okay ? Total destruction arrived upon me and now i can only face the death!
Jesus needs to become real to you my friend. Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble." There's more to your life than your life. You must die to yourself to have life with God. John 15:9 "As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10 If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17 This is my command: Love each other."
I don't know why i was even born into this world.I really don't.I've lost my entire family.I'm an orphan now ! Jesus lost His family too. While Jesus was still talking to the crowd, his mother and brothers stood outside, wanting to speak to him. 47 Someone told him, “Your mother and brothers are standing outside, wanting to speak to you.” 48 He replied to him, “Who is my mother, and who are my brothers?” 49 Pointing to his disciples, he said, “Here are my mother and my brothers. 50 For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother.”
I am all alone into this world.All by myself.With no one that i can lean on,with no one that i can rely on.Will i find here that true friend that i so need ? Will i ? My entire life i faced: depression,loneliness,rejection,humiliation,verbal abuse,physical abuse,sexual abuse.Where is God ? Or,better said,where was God in those times of hardship that i have to endure ? To any of you who really wants to get to know me i am here to pour out my heart to him/her.Just ask me.Just send me a PM and i will respond at once.Right now i am very confused about everything.Shall i just do it ? Shall i kill myself just because i find no more joy and no more understanding in my life ? What do you have to say ? Is there anybody on this forum that cares enough for me so that he/she will walk with me together ? Is there ? Hello ???
Yahweh is the God of all comfort and grace. You can lean on Him for support and I am here for you as well. If you look for Him with everything you are, you will find Him. I know because I know Him. I don't know of Him, I know Him. He is real my friend. If you have the internet then you have a bible. Read that and pray to grow in your spiritual understanding. All other questions you have I may help you with. We can also arrange times to talk on this chat site so it's a faster way to communicate. I pray that you find your way to God and the fullness He has waiting for your heart.
