I love God. I believe forgiveness to be a very important element for those of us on the path to righteousness, as well as anyone else, for that matter. I have issues. With family members. They double talk and lie to me and my children, about me and my children...all the time.
I'm really tired of it...long time tired. I did not stand up for it long ago and it got so out of control. I could blame myself, but I was manipulated as the 'youngest' for decades, harboring a mental illness and alone. I also adhered to, "Turn the other cheek".
Do I 'go to my brother and reconcile"? Or "Dust my feet"? They won't listen and when I have asked them anything concerning these issues they simply deny or delegate it as a misunderstanding.
It's trash...truthfully trash. I have a need to forgive them. A desire not to see them...or associate with them.
Images of backlash...don't make me feel good. I'm sure God wants me to reconcile, but I"m only invited when the clan is at full force, like the holidays. I've gone many years to these things to watch them get drunk. Not my cup... They all propose to be Christian's...more denominations in our family than I can share.
Help?
I'm really tired of it...long time tired. I did not stand up for it long ago and it got so out of control. I could blame myself, but I was manipulated as the 'youngest' for decades, harboring a mental illness and alone. I also adhered to, "Turn the other cheek".
Do I 'go to my brother and reconcile"? Or "Dust my feet"? They won't listen and when I have asked them anything concerning these issues they simply deny or delegate it as a misunderstanding.
It's trash...truthfully trash. I have a need to forgive them. A desire not to see them...or associate with them.
Images of backlash...don't make me feel good. I'm sure God wants me to reconcile, but I"m only invited when the clan is at full force, like the holidays. I've gone many years to these things to watch them get drunk. Not my cup... They all propose to be Christian's...more denominations in our family than I can share.
Help?