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IAm3rd
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Hi all... I have'nt been on much lately, and never have been active on the forum... just chat.
Anyway, I have gone through a period in which God was calling me to go into the streets and witness, giving out bibles and tracts etc... just trying to share the gospel to whoever would listen. I struggled with this for a long time because frankly that's just not in my personality. I'm actually a pretty shy guy... But once I started to obey God in this my relationship with him grew and grew. But it seems like the enemy is coming after me ... temptations from every angle more than ever. It's CRAZY... I've learned that as soon as you FULLY commit your life to Christ, to not let anything else matter but Christ and the Kingdom of God then all hell will break loose on you. And it has, so much so that I have fallen... and fallen... and fallen, and though I get back up and weep in repentance before God and keep going, I feel that I am weaker than ever. So weak in fact I find it hard to get back up. I pray for His strength, for on my own I can do nothing but be a wretch... and yet I am so weak. I feel lost. All I want to do is live for God, to fight for his kingdom. Yet, I struggle so hard. I should be out doing God's will in my life, and I know what I'm called to do. But, I confess to you that I have fallen into a pit that I barely have the strength to even look up towards the light, let alone climb out of.
Please pray that God will give me the strength... pray that I would be delivered from any demonic influence in my life.
Thank you
Anyway, I have gone through a period in which God was calling me to go into the streets and witness, giving out bibles and tracts etc... just trying to share the gospel to whoever would listen. I struggled with this for a long time because frankly that's just not in my personality. I'm actually a pretty shy guy... But once I started to obey God in this my relationship with him grew and grew. But it seems like the enemy is coming after me ... temptations from every angle more than ever. It's CRAZY... I've learned that as soon as you FULLY commit your life to Christ, to not let anything else matter but Christ and the Kingdom of God then all hell will break loose on you. And it has, so much so that I have fallen... and fallen... and fallen, and though I get back up and weep in repentance before God and keep going, I feel that I am weaker than ever. So weak in fact I find it hard to get back up. I pray for His strength, for on my own I can do nothing but be a wretch... and yet I am so weak. I feel lost. All I want to do is live for God, to fight for his kingdom. Yet, I struggle so hard. I should be out doing God's will in my life, and I know what I'm called to do. But, I confess to you that I have fallen into a pit that I barely have the strength to even look up towards the light, let alone climb out of.
Please pray that God will give me the strength... pray that I would be delivered from any demonic influence in my life.
Thank you