Hello, my name is Skylar I have learning disabilities: ADHD, OCD, Auditory Processing Disorder, Oral Expression Disorder, Severe Anxitey, and Depression. I feel sorry, anxious, depressed because I feel like people think I am annoying, crazy, weird, etc. It feels like nobody likes me or wants to be my friend. It feels like barely even anyone wants to be my friend. It feels like barely even anyone wants to text with me/hangout with me. It feels like I am invisible like some people dont even notice me. It makes me feel sad and lonely because it feels like nobody wants to be my friend.
Everyone freaking leaves when I try to explain to them what I’m going through it freaking hurts and then I have no one to freaking talk to because I’m just a worthless person
Well, sister, weird is just peachy. Weird in appearance is less fine.
Weird in thoughts is a box out of which someone can remove you by taking you in thought to another place and then turning back with you - saying "see I told you that the earth wasn't flat!"
Yours not weird - you just need to find.a way outside the box and look back for a moment. That takes trust and it takes friendship. So, sister, find the friends on here that can do weird and do it sufficiently well not to harm you any further.
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There is a line of men and women and at one end are the student cohort. At the other end are the professors and the academics. Some of those professors and academics are also pastoral. Some lecture hard and seem to be rather demanding. Others call you into the shared environment of the tutorial where you can discuss the hard lecture with the lecturer and hear how the other students feel and think about the subject of the lecture. Then there is the private tutorial you spend with the professor and then and only then you may see the pastoral arising out of the intimacy of speaking with him or her face to face.
So you are all in a line and contracted together - you with your fellow students to learn and grow in your skills of learning - and the professors to teach with their fellow academic staff who support you [them] and make their work productive.
Then you hear one of your fellow students accuse of some transgression - and seeing that your field of study is clinical nursing - say BSc Mental Health Nursing - They do it in sight and hearing of the entire body in your University intake and in the hearing of the Professors.. They may do that for almost any reason personally - but what they say has to have some validity to cause the Professor to look at you - and when he or she does that - what you may find is that suddenly you are no longer in the cohort but have been transported across a divide wherein you are now looking at the entire body of the school of nursing and it seems as though you are no longer a student of mental health - but rather unwell.
What the student needs to do is recognise that this seeming transportation across a threshold that now seemingly separates you from your school of learning - is recognise your own mind. You have no more left the group than the professor has thrown you off the course. simply because a fellow student is a bitch. So the best thing is to refuse the contract and see your self in the midst with your accuser and its effect and look to the professor for validity. Not your student accuser and not yourself. You don't leave a group unless you run away and even then your professor may want you back in the group. If he or she throws you out then it is because you will be a risk to the patients you will be clinically treating once you have qualified.
And seeing as this is stated outwith the entirety of your diagnostic claims about yourself - then reading it will not be difficult.
So as I say, sister, weird is just peachy.
Welcome to the forum.
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