I'm really not much of a christian. You wouldn't know it if you knew me from day to day, like the people I work with. Oh, most of them would know I am, been told by myself in the past. But nothing I say or do continually reminds them that I'm living proof of Gods existence. Perhaps more like, the guy who doesn't swear or something like that.
I have zero boldness, I allow fear to dictate my words and actions. Some would probably say as James said it, without works, faith is dead. Sure God loves me, but I only know that mentally! Truthfully, deep down, my heart doesn't believe it and if I don't believe it, how can I convince others?
You've probably heard me talking the talk here, but that's doesn't really mean much. I can't really tell you much about who our God is because I don't really know Him. I don't give Him the honour He deserves. Most of the time, when I want to talk with God, my heart is filled with so much grief deep down that I can get no words out, so I just sit there and basically give up.
That all presents a problem you see, because if my heart really won't accept what God says about how He loves us, I'm left alone with own heart to tell me what I think of myself... Which ain't much.
Well, that's all, I'm glad I had the opportunity to be real with you all. Im not really wanting to be felt sorry for or anything. Sometimes its easier to get things out anonymously. Good day.
I have zero boldness, I allow fear to dictate my words and actions. Some would probably say as James said it, without works, faith is dead. Sure God loves me, but I only know that mentally! Truthfully, deep down, my heart doesn't believe it and if I don't believe it, how can I convince others?
You've probably heard me talking the talk here, but that's doesn't really mean much. I can't really tell you much about who our God is because I don't really know Him. I don't give Him the honour He deserves. Most of the time, when I want to talk with God, my heart is filled with so much grief deep down that I can get no words out, so I just sit there and basically give up.
That all presents a problem you see, because if my heart really won't accept what God says about how He loves us, I'm left alone with own heart to tell me what I think of myself... Which ain't much.
Well, that's all, I'm glad I had the opportunity to be real with you all. Im not really wanting to be felt sorry for or anything. Sometimes its easier to get things out anonymously. Good day.