its hard to get help. like I don't want some guy to tell me im crazy and give me a bunch of pills. and also itd probably end up getting my parents involved and I don't want that. really all I want is to know whats wrong with me. I think thatll make life a lot easier for me.
Well, no one here can tell you that. You want answers, you need help from people who are trained to diagnose and treat any problems that may exist.
And your fear of 'don't want some guy to tell me i'm crazy and give me a bunch of pills' may seem bad. But if you actually do have schizophrenia then you will want that help. Hiding from it won't make it better, only worse. And your parents may need to be involved. It's unfair to them to hide something that can affect how you need to be dealt with.
Schizo can actually be cured naturally. Though the more 'developed' a nation is the less likely a person is to be cured. In third world countries where tribes and small villages are the norm, people with schizo are still expected to be a functioning member of society. And those whose schizo is not severe can actually be cured of it because of the attitude that they are still a member of the society and still need to contribute.
There is also schizo-effective disorder. It just means you may have some of the symptoms of schizo, but not be full blown schizo.
Biblically speaking there are no ghosts. 'It is appointed once for a man to die..... then to judgement'. A ghost would be the spirit of a dead person who has unresolved issues on earth and is stuck here til they resolve the issues. This is not possible according to scripture.
I've felt some of the ways you do. I still recognize some levels of paranoia within myself. I've seen a few counselors, and am even seeing one now for other reasons. Not once has anyone even hinted at my having schizo.
And what happens when you have anxiety doesn't really prove anything. People get all kinds of weird thoughts and feelings during anxiety.