your heart is at the right place zoey. As Christians we must realize that we could not have existed unless God had created us. Also we know that He said that apart from Him we can't bear any fruit. We set ourselves apart from Him when we don't pray or read the scripture, and when we don't do so we hold back God from revealing Himself to us and really work in our lives. One thing i've also noticed is that it is much easier for you to fall into sin and to be tempted by many various things that we should avoid as Christians. I speak this out of experience, and in no way mean to seem better than you. But it is no wonder why Jesus said that man should not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes forth from the mouth of God. Also, scripture is just filled with such wonderful prophecies that are being fulfilled to this day. Just know this, scripture is the specific truth for specific situations in your life. Thanks to scripture I have really found the meaning of life. The bible is simply so amazing and so powerful that I cannot see anyone living these days in good psychological health without the promises in it, due to all the turmoil and horrible things going on in this world.
So friend, my conclusive advise is that for your own good, for you to see God working in your life mightily, for the purpose which you were created (which is to be conformed to the image of the Son of God), and because we are going to spend an eternity with Him...
James 4:8
Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded
BTW, james wasn't trying to insult anyone.
If you want to start reading something good read the book of ephesians, which isn't that long.
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