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Hey, brothers and sisters, I need your help in advices and in pray...
The story is... I had a friend when I was in my 15's, (( I knew about Jesus, about God, but it was a time in my life, that I was like, why do people have to know that I'm christian? )) I had a friend there, and he died in car accident, he was a good friend of mine and a classmate, I was really sad because I didn't speak to him about Jesus... Just about it, a few months after, when I truly "converted" myself and started to say and admit to people, "I'm christian" etc... I once said to God, that I was sorry about it, etc... infront of my whole church that I've failed to probably save a life...
Well, that was 5 years a go, yesterday it made 5 years that my friend had the car-accident, and yesterday night, I had the most WEIRDEST / DARK dream ever, about him, the coffin, he totally rotten, funeral, his mom crying, etc..... really bad dream.. and I woke up like 3 am, scared but, nothing much, after a few hours, I felt asleep again and I had the exactly same dream!! same images..
Okay, now I can't sleep, and everytime I think about it, my heart almost jumps of anxiety.. I feel like "remorse" after 5 years, how is that possible? I'm feeling like those soldiers from the army, I just lay myself on the bed, and the images come and I can't sleep..
I've already pray, I already said "GOD I CONFESS THAT I'VE FAILED.." and I tell to you too brothers and sisters, I've failed to save a life, :'((
I do confess and I ask your forgiveness aswell.. And please give me some replies, I'm feeling so bad... And most important, pray for me!!
I don't want this anxiety.
The story is... I had a friend when I was in my 15's, (( I knew about Jesus, about God, but it was a time in my life, that I was like, why do people have to know that I'm christian? )) I had a friend there, and he died in car accident, he was a good friend of mine and a classmate, I was really sad because I didn't speak to him about Jesus... Just about it, a few months after, when I truly "converted" myself and started to say and admit to people, "I'm christian" etc... I once said to God, that I was sorry about it, etc... infront of my whole church that I've failed to probably save a life...
Well, that was 5 years a go, yesterday it made 5 years that my friend had the car-accident, and yesterday night, I had the most WEIRDEST / DARK dream ever, about him, the coffin, he totally rotten, funeral, his mom crying, etc..... really bad dream.. and I woke up like 3 am, scared but, nothing much, after a few hours, I felt asleep again and I had the exactly same dream!! same images..
Okay, now I can't sleep, and everytime I think about it, my heart almost jumps of anxiety.. I feel like "remorse" after 5 years, how is that possible? I'm feeling like those soldiers from the army, I just lay myself on the bed, and the images come and I can't sleep..
I've already pray, I already said "GOD I CONFESS THAT I'VE FAILED.." and I tell to you too brothers and sisters, I've failed to save a life, :'((
I do confess and I ask your forgiveness aswell.. And please give me some replies, I'm feeling so bad... And most important, pray for me!!
I don't want this anxiety.