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Hi everyone. I am a stay-at-home mom of a 3 year old baby girl. I have posted here because i don't know where else to turn. Here's my problem, well a short version. I have Fibromyalgia, which already makes me weak and hurt. I have mild Scoliosis, which is a curvature of the spine, not enough to hurt though. I have been overweight my whole life, mainly I belive due to depression. When I gave birth almost three years ago I was at my heaviest at 276 pounds. Now, three years later I finally got my depression in order, and have lost down to 200 pounds. I'm 5'4 and very big boned. My dr said my goal weight is 160. I have done this with diet alone as my back will not allow me to exercise. I have been to my doctor, done physical therapy, seen a chiropractor, had an MRI, and x-rays. It's almost a crippling pain in my middle back. My stomach has always been my problem area, but until recently it never caused me problems. My dr finally decided just like heavy large breasts, all my loose skin on my stomach is what is causing the problem and only if I get a tummy tuck will I ever be normal again. She says theres nothing more she can do for me, for me to get daycare and be knocked out on Flexeril 24/7. I can not live that way. I have went round and round with my insurance trying so hard to get it paid for, even my psyciatrist sent them a letter saying it would greatly help my depression and self esteem issues as well. They still refuse after all the tests and evidence. I pray every day for my family, and people in need, not often praying for myself as I feel guilty asking for help for myself. But the last couple months it seems all I do is pray. Pray that it will get better, pray for a doctor to do the tummy tuck, pray I am able to even move about my house. I am 24 years old and can't even do my own housework anymore. I can't lift my 30 pound three year old when she says "pick me up mommy". It hurts so bad, I have to be pushed in a wheelchair in walmart. I feel like a failure, I feel worthless. Sometimes I feel like ending it all. Sometimes I feel like she would be better off not seeing her mommy like this. So everyone, please, please, pray for me. This is my last resort, my last hope. Please pray that a miracle happens for me. Thank you all for your time, and listening. If anyone has any advice, or have been through this please feel free to email me at [email protected] Thanks again everybody