Please pray for me, i'm dying inside

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Jake (i'm using a different name for him because it's online) and I have known each other for more than 2 years now.

He has been in love with me for more than a year now. I realized in January of this year that i loved him, and have been waiting to see him in person again since then, so that i could finally tell him.

Last week, he disappeared completely from my life. His number was changed or disconnected. I do not know why he did it, and my heart is breaking. I haven't been able to eat or sleep properly since then.

I will find out Monday whether he disconnected me intentionally or something happened and he still loves me. I am terrified to find out and cry just thinking about it. I try to have faith that his word is true and his love is real, but my logic is giving me this feeling he gave up on me because i don't know why else his number would be disconnected.

I am regretting not telling him how i feel so terribly.. it hurts...

I prayed for him the day before to be sure that he wasn't in trouble and my prayers were answered. I feel guilty asking for this too, but the last 15 months for me have been a long plague of heartache between losing my best friend since my childhood and men trying to come into my life, then emotionally abusing me, lying to me, and trying to physically violate me. I finally met a man who has protected me throughout all this, and deserves my love, and i am ready to be with someone who will stand by me and treat me with respect

I am asking god to let someone stay this time, and not abandon me without closure. I know it is god's choice and that maybe he has a plan for me if i am abandoned again, but i don't know if my heart can handle going through this again, as the people in my life are nearly all gone, and i have trouble meeting people because i am terribly socially awkward.

I love Jake very very much, and i need him in my life. I want his love to be true, and i want to stand by him, like he's always wanted me to.

I know this is a lot to ask for, but i am asking anyone who reads this to please pray for me, that on Monday i find out Jake still loves me, and he has not abandoned me.

Thank you so much for reading,
 
thank you so much, and i hope so!
I am hoping he just couldn't pay the bill or it broke,

I have been so anxious i've literally given myself the flu
 
aww, poor thing.. I know what you are going through my friend had the same problem...
 
Sorry to hear what you are going through. Find peace in God and do not let your head take over. It crazy how quick it can stress us out.


God Bless and ill be praying for you and him :)
 
I'm sorry your heart is hurting .. it is difficult when people we love and care for go.. I will be praying for you .come vent as much as you need too.. you have a lot of support here ..
Blessings sweety ..
 
Love is a two edged sword. It feels great and it can hurt like hec. In fact, few things in this life hurt worse than love unfulfilled. Who knows what happened? Don't assume anything. Just wait and see what happens. (((HUGS))))
 
Thank you all so much!! I am going to pray more before i go to sleep, I won't know what happens until Monday.
I will be coming here in the meantime, and i will update on what happens on Monday!!

He is extremely special to me, and for him to do this, would be heartless, and i just don't know how i will deal with the trauma. I've had a couple good cries tonight and i feel relieved now

THANK YOU EVERYONE SO MUCH for praying for me, i appreciate it so much, you have no idea!!! <3
 
Praying for you both and all you ask in Jesus name with raise and thanksgiving.

Hugs hugs and God bless
pickles
 
I'l be praying for you too. May your prayer be granted by God. And may stand still whatever may happen.


Godbless. . :)
 
I pray that the Lord gives you direction and strength to overcome all that you face, but take heart that the Lord has a plan for your life and if you are His child (because you asked him to come into your heart as your personal savior) he will move someone out of your life that isn't suppose to be there. This could be the Lord closing the door to protect you. Trust Him.
 
[h=2]Interview With God[/h]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]I dreamed I had an interview with God.[/FONT]
I dreamed I had an interview with God.
"So, you would like to interview me?" God asked.
"If you have the time," I said.
God smiled. "My time is eternity; what questions do
you have in mind to ask
me?"

"What surprises you most about humankind?"
God answered: "That they get bored with childhood --
they rush to grow up
and then long to be children again.
That they lose their health to make money and then
lose their money to
restore their health.

That by thinking anxiously about the future, they
forget the present,
such that they live neither the present nor the
future.
That they live as if they will never die, and they die
as if they had never
lived..."

God's hands took mine and we were silent for while and
then I asked...
"As a parent, what are some of life's lessons you want
your children to
learn?"

God replied with a smile: "To learn that they cannot
make anyone love
them. What they can do is to let themselves be loved.
To learn that what is most valuable is not what they
have in their
lives, but who they have in their lives.

To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to
others.
To learn that a rich person is not the one who has the
most, but is one
who needs the least.

To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open
profound wounds in
persons one loves, and that it may take many years to
heal them.
To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness.
To learn that there are persons who love them dearly,
but simply do not
know how to express or show their feelings.

To learn that money can buy everything but happiness.
To learn that two people can look at the same thing
and see it very
differently.

To learn that it is not always enough that they be
forgiven by others,
but that they must also forgive themselves.

And to learn that I am here -- always."

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“So you would like to interview me?” God asked[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“If you have the time” I said.[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]God smiled[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“My time is eternity”[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“What questions do you have in mind for me?”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“What surprises you most about humankind?...”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]God answered...[/FONT]


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[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]I dreamed I had an interview with God.[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“So you would like to interview me?” God asked[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“If you have the time” I said.[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]God smiled[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“My time is eternity”[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“What questions do you have in mind for me?”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“What surprises you most about humankind?...”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]God answered...[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“That they get bored with childhood.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]They rush to grow up and then[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]long to be children again.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“That they lose their health to make money[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]and then lose their money to restore their health.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“That by thinking anxiously about the future,[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]they forget the present,[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]such that they live in neither[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]the present nor the future.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]That they live as if they will never die,[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]and die as if they had never lived.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]God’s hand took mine[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]and we were silent for a while[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]And then I asked...[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]you want your children to learn?”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]God replied with a smile[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“To learn they cannot make anyone love them.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]What they can do is let themselves be loved.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“To learn that it is not good[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]to compare themselves to others.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most,[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]but is one who needs the least.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“To learn that it only takes a few seconds[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]to open profound wounds in persons we love,[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]and it takes many years to heal them.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“To learn to forgive by[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]practicing forgiveness.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“To learn that there are persons who love them dearly,[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]but simply do not know how to express or show[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]their feelings.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“To learn that two people[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]can look at the same thing[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]and see it differently.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“To learn that it is not always enough that they[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]be forgiven by others. But that they must[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]forgive themselves.”[/FONT]

[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]“And to learn that I am here[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif]always.”[/FONT]
 
To everyone who prayed for me, thank you so much
As for how today went, well... I called his work, no one answered. He must still be on vacation or wherever he is, i don't know :(
At this point, i have done all i can do, all i can do is hope that god will send him back into my life.
It's out of my hands now, and only time will tell me what happens :(
If it's not too much to ask, please keep me in your prayers, i will be praying every night.

I will update if anything happens :(
 
May God bless you with His perfect peace that surpasses understanding.
I will pray as God leads my heart. <3
 
I will still pray for you...if it is in God will it will happen :) God Bless
 
I will pray for you. I pray you have peace! I pray that you feel God's love through His Son Jesus. I pray the Holy Spirit brings you joy!
 
Dear Sister, I pray that Jake will contact you very soon, what God wants is all that matters. If we try to squeeze someone into our life, and for instance they are not saved, you could be asking for more than heartbrake.

I pray that our Lord will send you the lover He has waiting for you, in Jesus name, Amen.

Do not give up. God will not disapoint a loyal Daughter who spends her life trying to please Him. Put God first, and you will be richly rewarded.

May you have a wonderful life in Jesus with the one, God chooses for you to share it with, in Jesus name, Amen.

Love in our Lord and Savior
bro gary
 
Praying that God's will be done in yours and Jake's life. And that you will find comfort and peace with God, no matter what. God bless!
 
Ill keep praying for you both in Jesus's name, for all that is His peace and the joy of His love.

Hugs and God bless
pickles
 
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