Oh how beautiful to see a young man hearing God! My young friend, you are already awake! Look at what you said... IF GOD EXIST! Let me show you what i mean... No person have EVER tried to find something they KNOW does not exist. That is just plain daftness then. And you said IF HE EXISTS, you did not say... Let god ..becasue he does not exist! You are not sure if God exist? Well let us first establish that... Can you make a single cell of human flesh? Nobody can, yet God does this a zillion times in every one of us as long as we live! So there is something greater than the creation, of which we are the crown. God says we are the crown of His creation, becasue we are his biggest achievement, we are made to His image and His likeness. Now! You said that he should wack you on the head to wake up, but look how God wakes up EVERYBODY!!! God says many are called! Hey you know how your mother calls.... COBUS COME AND EAT BREAKFAST!!!! And then you pull your pillow over your head to sleep. But she has made the eggs and toast.. so she walks to your bedroom door and says... Young man if you do not stand up this moment i will pour cold water over you... She still only calls!!! Then you know she is not going to let up untill you are done eating the eggs and toast. then you stand up.
God is the same... He calls us, and that is the first thing ANY person knows about God... It is the realisation that we are not what we are supposed to be. I only HEARD God the fisrt time when i was 38 years old. There is no such thing as a non-believer, even athiests says they BELIVE IN NOTHING! they believe, be it nothing they still believe. Bit you imply you do not believe in God! and why do you ask people to pray for you, to believe! Believe is FAITH... Look what the Bible says faith is... Hebrews 11:1... Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Faith is something we hope for and the evedence of things not seen. But evidence should be SEEN! And this is what you will SEE! The more time you spend reading your Bible, the more you will SEE! Young man you will LOVE the discoveries! It is people like you and me, that HAD NO HOPE, that absolutely LOVE JESUS! He SHOWS us so much when we walk with Him through His Word. God said... those that were FAR from Him are the ones that appreciates HIM more than the ones that were close to Him. You may think you do not know your "standing with God" but He knows, JUST TRUST HIM! Read your Bible and ask God to SHOW you! Let me tell you my young friend, it will be the RIDE OF YOUR LIFE!
Here is my prayer for you: " Lord Jesus, lead this young disciple to YOUR KINGDOM, and let him be the hands and feet that You will use to save his friends! Amen!"
My friend I wish you JESUS! If you have questions about the Bible, ASK GOD! HE LOVES TO SHOW TRUE SEARCHERS!
May the Lord of peace bless you RITCHLY! Amen!