I will pray for you daily. Have more faith in God. He still loves you. Nothing can separate you from the love of God. God will forgive you. Just ask for forgiveness. Stop talking negative about yourself. You can do this. What is impossible for man; It is possible with God.
Negative self talk can lead to low self esteem, create a myriad of health problems brought on by needless anxiety and stress and also will result in causing us to under achieve in life. You have to start by being aware of the wrong thoughts and making the choice to change things. Once you make the choice you can start changing your life for the better.
Did you know the Bible encourages us to speak to ourselves?
Ephesians 5:19
Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord.
Sing and make melody in your heart to the Lord. None of us can escape the day to day grind of life but all of us can change our attitude to life while doing so. For example when washing the dishes at night we can complain how the kids used every bit of cutlery in the drawer and how much time it takes and so on or we can sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs while doing it. It doesn't matter what it is we can make melody in our hearts to the Lord. Which was the more positive?
As you can see from the above mundane example changing to be more positive doesn't have to be hard work. Read more of the Bible and take on board the wonderful things it says about you. You are not hopeless or stupid or useless. You are victorious in Christ. You are a son or daughter of the living God. You are more than a conqueror. You are the beloved of God.
Agreeing in prayer for you. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Psa 51:1 ...Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
Psa 51:2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
Psa 51:3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
Psa 51:4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
Psa 51:5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
Psa 51:6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
Psa 51:7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
Psa 51:8 Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.
Psa 51:9 Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
Psa 51:11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.
Psa 51:12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
Psa 51:13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
Psa 51:14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.
Psa 51:15 O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.
Psa 51:16 For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.
Psa 51:17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
Psa 51:18 Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem.