I just can't take this pain inside me any more. Every day whenever I wake up I just remember that I'm in pain. I'm constantly depressed, and have no motivation to do anything anymore. My best friend probably doesn't like me now. I feel so lost and lonely and hurt now and have no one to talk to. Nobody really wants to talk to me...I don't know what I'm doing in my life anymore. It's just pointless to me now. I have no job or anything. I have no motivation to find one or decide if I should go back to school. I can't even make myself cry about this now. It's a constant pain in my heart and I hate myself. I sometimes wish I could go to heaven already. Please pray for me and that things will finally get better...