please pray for me to become completely free of sadistic and masochistic thoughts they started in childhood and grew up with me. i never felt they were bad until some guy neighbors from cataula georgia got my diary by mistake when we were moving, and i have been feeling guilty about having them ever since and i know now without a doubt now that our friendship is ruined, and i can never go back to georgia again because of what was written down, so i wont these thoughts completely gone and all fantasies ive been having because of them.