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Over the last few days I have been feeling very distant from God and I feel like my crying out to him is not really doing anything. I have also been feeling oppression and a lot of sadness. Both over my sin, and over who I am as a person, as well as noticing a lot of different things in my heart that I am not satisfied with. I am also growing tired a lot when I am sitting and reading the bible, kind of feeling overwhelmed by it again and just feeling like I am not hearing God's will for my life. I feel like he doesn't hear me, because I have been praying for years to understand where he wants me to go with my life but I never have been given an answer that will stick with me. I have also been hinted at that maybe my heart is closed to what he wants to do in me, but I feel completely wretched to the point where I have to wait on him for absolutely everything and I just am at a place of great anxiety because it is new to me, and also I feel like he doesn't care. I know that sounds messed up but that's how I feel right now and it is leaking into every other aspect of my life.
I also feel that I have burned every bridge that God never wanted me to be on, and the factor that I have to wait for a door to open for me, and that the insight I am about to gather is not from me but him, overwhelms me.
I feel like a stupid sheep because in a lot of ways, he has delivered....and the fact that he is slowly delivering me out of this part of my life just overwhelms me and makes me feel extremely anxious. I am also experiencing a lot of oppression and conflict from my environment and it is annoys me and makes me feel completely isolated.
Please pray for me that I will get back to the good place with God and that this anxiety would leave me.
Thanks.
I also feel that I have burned every bridge that God never wanted me to be on, and the factor that I have to wait for a door to open for me, and that the insight I am about to gather is not from me but him, overwhelms me.
I feel like a stupid sheep because in a lot of ways, he has delivered....and the fact that he is slowly delivering me out of this part of my life just overwhelms me and makes me feel extremely anxious. I am also experiencing a lot of oppression and conflict from my environment and it is annoys me and makes me feel completely isolated.
Please pray for me that I will get back to the good place with God and that this anxiety would leave me.
Thanks.