Hi so basically i been struggling with really bad depression and sometimes i still get suicidal thoughts im confused why suicide is so common and it happens to so many sweet people who feel stuck ;/ i dont get it and i been having very bad spiritual problems i dont feel God is near i pray and i mean it everyday and i have faith but i honestly am not sure what i need to do but plz pray for me and we are about to move and i am about to start my life and get my license and start college i pray that goes well and i make the right decisions but i just been so upset and sad lately i feel so lost i dont know i just feel hopeless and i pray God will deliver me from my porn addiction and my other sins i do and my temptation and i pray that i can be a nicer person;/ i been having a bad atititude and acting wrong and i have bad anger issues i dont know how to help them either i wish i did but i dont know how to do it alone and i just have a few health problems too and i just want to feel good about myself i havent taken ccare of myself of seen myself clearly in the mirror for almost a year lol its kinda sad but i take care of myself i just cant look at myself because i always pick myself out and i just been feeling so weak i just am looking for answers and i pray that God can just elp me just to be a better person ;/ idk im sorry for making this petty i am just so confused and i got a lot more stuff going on and going on in my head but i just dont understand