I’m praying for you brother but I also want to share a prayer in 1st person you might pray for yourself.
A Prayer for Strength and Courage
Lord God,
Just as You told Joshua to be strong and courageous, so too can I. You told Joshua You would be with him. He had no reason to fear, and You are with me, too! Nothing I might face in this world is too hard for You to overcome. Yes, Father, I struggle. I think I don’t have the strength to go on when bad times and evil lies befall me. My neck grows too weak to hold up my head. And then I read Your word and welcome Your
Holy Spirit to fill me once again. And You raise me up! You have secured for me my full armor! As I buckle my belt of truth, place the helmet of salvation upon my head, cinch the breastplate of righteousness firmly on, step in the shoes which provide readiness to share the gospel of peace—as I hold the shield of
faith and grasp the sword of the Spirit, my hope soars! All these pieces of armor are You! You are the victor, and You will work mightily in and through me. Thank You, Lord, for the hope of strength and courage that comes from You!
In Jesus name
Amen.