When you are a mom and your child desperately and I mean desperately ask's you for something, and you have to say No not now you must have your dinner first, or no I know that it will make you ill, or No you have to finish your homework first. Children hardly ever if never understand. When the time is right they have had the sweet, when they have done the homework they get to watch television.
Children often think that the parent is being to hard and harsh and all to often doesn't understand. Jesus is our father hey? He truly wants to give us the desires of our heart. Sometimes the desires change as we follow and learn more about Him, and what was once a priority no longer is.
I am not trying to minimalize your heart's desire in any way. I am trying to maybe make you look at it a bit differently.
I desperately wanted a child, and got involved in child welfare and started a foster home and safe house for children. This way I had an impact on many children's lives, if I had had that child this would never of happened, and those children would never of come into our lives. I can't tell you the wonderful times we shared and the bonding we did, even though it was only for a season, I hope and pray that they saw Jesus in me, and it lead them to a closer relationship with our Father.
May the Lord make His face shine upon you my sister.
God Bless