So I just moved into this college, gymnasium or what you call it in your country.
And I realize I have some major social difficulties. I started Tuesday.
Thursday a woman came in to me, like a teacher, and said that because I wasn't with or talking much with my house mates, she was afraid that I was isolating myself..
And I said that I'm just an introvert.
And I over think everything.
I should say, I'm very grateful that I can go here, with 9 other house mates, living here, taking 2 years.
And then further in the educational system. And then maybe get a job.
But I can't stop thinking, you know me, and I over think everything. That's how I grew up.
It's Friday, and they're all partying.
I chose, again to go into my room. (Did jam with a couple of people all the nights since Wednesday for like an hour)
I don't really have a hard time doing classes. So far.
But it's the social thing, I overheard someone on the hall saying she does a lot of cocaine, and now they're into the city to get some.
NOW, I shouldn't judge people, if I don't want to be judged by them.
AND I know there is probably people like me, who doesn't wanna party too here.
But it's too much of sex, alcohol and drugs here on the school. But because it's students it's just being young.
But I know it, my generation is all about that..
Where when I did it, it was because I wanted to escape. Not because I had a long day, but a long life.
Not justifying it in anyway, drugs is stupid, period. But saying many people take it to have fun, to go all night and create memories with friends.
Either I could just bite my tongue, and try to be social (even though I don't know who I can trust, and who does what.. Cause I'm afraid of coming back in my old habit)
REASON 1. To continue this school would be: getting an education. As the first one in my family tree. And I guess to work on my social skills.
Or I could stop on the school,
See now my mind is altering, mindset.
REASON 1.
I could be diciplined, and pursue my dream, to be a writer. Full time.
Could either live with my half brother, or I could move back to my mom.
Busk on the street.
Get a job. And focus the rest of the time to pursue my dream.
My mindset is altering, cause, life is so short, I could die tomorrow. Why would I want to have an education, when I could pursue my dreams? (Still work on social skills, cause I shouldn't be alone!)
Education, to MAYBE get a job when I'm older, and push it aside "that" Novell I wanted to write when I was young, 20 years of age.
What do you think I should do?
What's your thoughts? Just need an outside perspective.
And I realize I have some major social difficulties. I started Tuesday.
Thursday a woman came in to me, like a teacher, and said that because I wasn't with or talking much with my house mates, she was afraid that I was isolating myself..
And I said that I'm just an introvert.
And I over think everything.
I should say, I'm very grateful that I can go here, with 9 other house mates, living here, taking 2 years.
And then further in the educational system. And then maybe get a job.
But I can't stop thinking, you know me, and I over think everything. That's how I grew up.
It's Friday, and they're all partying.
I chose, again to go into my room. (Did jam with a couple of people all the nights since Wednesday for like an hour)
I don't really have a hard time doing classes. So far.
But it's the social thing, I overheard someone on the hall saying she does a lot of cocaine, and now they're into the city to get some.
NOW, I shouldn't judge people, if I don't want to be judged by them.
AND I know there is probably people like me, who doesn't wanna party too here.
But it's too much of sex, alcohol and drugs here on the school. But because it's students it's just being young.
But I know it, my generation is all about that..
Where when I did it, it was because I wanted to escape. Not because I had a long day, but a long life.
Not justifying it in anyway, drugs is stupid, period. But saying many people take it to have fun, to go all night and create memories with friends.
Either I could just bite my tongue, and try to be social (even though I don't know who I can trust, and who does what.. Cause I'm afraid of coming back in my old habit)
REASON 1. To continue this school would be: getting an education. As the first one in my family tree. And I guess to work on my social skills.
Or I could stop on the school,
See now my mind is altering, mindset.
REASON 1.
I could be diciplined, and pursue my dream, to be a writer. Full time.
Could either live with my half brother, or I could move back to my mom.
Busk on the street.
Get a job. And focus the rest of the time to pursue my dream.
My mindset is altering, cause, life is so short, I could die tomorrow. Why would I want to have an education, when I could pursue my dreams? (Still work on social skills, cause I shouldn't be alone!)
Education, to MAYBE get a job when I'm older, and push it aside "that" Novell I wanted to write when I was young, 20 years of age.
What do you think I should do?
What's your thoughts? Just need an outside perspective.