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bealight2012
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Sometimes im hopeless, sometimes im full of hope. But giving up feels like its not an option. I just gave my life to the lord not to long ago but its very hard to change sometimes. Im trying to not sin but sometimes its very hard especially when your not focused. Jesus saaids to bear good fruit and im trying too but i feel like my mother is trying to hold me hostage smh because she wants me to babysit or whatever or she tells me people are out here dying or just until another time. But 1 out of 1 people die so what does it matter i'd rather die while doing something that betters someone else than die safely. I cant commit my life to what she wants me to do or when she wants me to do something because time is flying and when the time comes for me to give an account of my life before God what will I say then.... I didn't do anything? Ughhh Sometimes I wish I could just runaway to another place and be with someone who isnt trying to keep me away from the but help me explore it and help others.