Would really appreciate some prayers right now. I need lots of them.
I'm really struggling to move on from a situation from last year. Just when I thought I was finally making progress I ended up taking, what feels like, 10 steps backwards. It feels like the enemy just enjoys my misery, like it's entertainment for him. Just so cruel.
I was angry with God for a bit, which did pass, but now it's returned again. He let things happen to me in the past (which I eventually accepted), but I just can't believe that something else would happen, something completely out of my control. It's like another blow. I'm struggling to understand how He could let this happen, since He's omniscient. Why let me fall into a situation which I have no control over. Why leave me to fall into the trap. It's not like I had the chance to say yes or no to it.
It's so difficult. It's been 17 months now. I take a step forwards and then I'm 10 steps backwards.
My heart just feels so tired... and like it's been through a meat grinder
And would finally like to get some sleep too. I've not been getting much of that lately.
Thanks brothers & sisters...
I'm really struggling to move on from a situation from last year. Just when I thought I was finally making progress I ended up taking, what feels like, 10 steps backwards. It feels like the enemy just enjoys my misery, like it's entertainment for him. Just so cruel.
I was angry with God for a bit, which did pass, but now it's returned again. He let things happen to me in the past (which I eventually accepted), but I just can't believe that something else would happen, something completely out of my control. It's like another blow. I'm struggling to understand how He could let this happen, since He's omniscient. Why let me fall into a situation which I have no control over. Why leave me to fall into the trap. It's not like I had the chance to say yes or no to it.
It's so difficult. It's been 17 months now. I take a step forwards and then I'm 10 steps backwards.
My heart just feels so tired... and like it's been through a meat grinder
And would finally like to get some sleep too. I've not been getting much of that lately.
Thanks brothers & sisters...