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tep3252
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I wanted to ask for christian advice regarding my current relationship. I have been dating this guy for about 3 years, we ate both christian, but I don't think his heart is after the Lord anymore. It has been a struggle for me to go through what I am going, he always told me that he hated repetition and that lately I had become controlling, I was afraid that he would do something that could hurt me. His Co workers are non christians, and he likes beijg around them, I was afraid that this would cause him to drink more since he likes drinking and he told me that he didn't see anything wrong with smoking weed, and the people he works with do that. He did say that he wouldn't do it because he knew I didnt want that. Lately we had been arguing alot about him going out with them, and he would get a temper and start yelling at me and walk away, kick his chair out of anger saying that I was judging him that I made him feel restricted, and was repetitive. Something he had told me he hated, and that made him upset so he said that it was my fault because I didnt listen to him, and I brought negativity to the relationship. I told him I couldn't help it sometimes, that I had concerns and fears. Everytime he did this I really felt guilty and I told him I was sorry I was doing that. About 3 weeks ago, I had been very sad and anxious, I could explain why and one day we had an argument in the morning then I apologized and he seemed to have moved on, when I went to see him that day I had something to drink because I felt I wasn't going to be able to talk to him feeling at ease, I wanted to tell him that I was struggling with something that I didn't even know why I was so anxious, when I started to talk I began to cry and he got so angry, he yelled, he said he didn't need this, and me being emotional that he wanted to just relax and started to scream and walked away and he broke a window with his fist, after this I went after him in shock and he cuss at me and left. After this episode I didnt talk to him for about a week, when he went to see me and we were going to go to church, he told me he was sorry that it wasn't him that night, that all of that happen because he was frustrated at me and he exploted, that he wanted me to accept 3 conditions, or he couldn't see our relationship working. He wanted me to accept him wanting to go out with ppl, and time to himself, and to accept him smoking weed of he wants to. That he had smoke the week he didn't see me with one of his coworkers and her husband, and he doesn't see anything wrong with that, instead it brings him closer to god. In the past before I met him he told me he used to do drugs but that he quit that lifestyle, and I never really question that. He even said that if I can't accept him to let him go. I feel like I am not appreciated at all, even loved. All this time I never introduced any bad habits or addictions into his life, and he treats me this way. I want to find the strength to leave him, because even writing all of this kills me.
