The bottom line reason for my topic is this...I hated and never believed in God, Christ, etc. It appalled me and pissed me off. Through the testimony of what society would label a "junkie/whore", I slightly doubted in my unbelief. At that very instant The Lord gave me a spiritual experience that I am unable to give justice to through explanation. I was imputed with the holy spirit, and 6-1/2 years later as I was half heartedly trying to find comfort in the Bible during a tough time, my understanding was instantaneously opened, and it explained to me my own testimony. I have been drawn to labor in the Word of God for truth, sustenance, comfort, wisdom, etc. After 13 years of rebirth I am still beside myself in amazement concerning the desires, belief, love, wisdom, and understanding that I have been given. I never asked for it, but I am unable to deny that Jesus is The Christ, and I am unable to place the righteousness of God anywhere but in the forefront of my mind. I never cared to want this, but it is truly irresistible and irrevocable. It's the best thing to ever happen to me. From what I understand is that I am chosen (said as humbly as I possibly can). THAT is why I picked the topic I picked. I KNOW what the truth is, and have been lit on fire to confess it...sorry. there's absolutely no doubt I understand what I do solely by the revelation of the Holy Spirit imputed into me. Sorry about the intense subject matter but I believe it is only intense for the most part because the uncertain want to assure their salvation when if they knew the truth, they would be set free, and it would be "Good news", and not a laborious task trying to obtain favor and righteousness in the eyes and heart of the Lord. If you are tuned to the truth, you will genuinely find his yoke to be easy and his burden light. God loves like we can not fathom. Love is given, not earned....please, rest in that love, for his grace will always superceed justice for those that believe and love him. God bless you all.