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Bethgodsgirl
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I want to be honest with everyone, that i've never been the best christian.
I got saved by the lord when I was 12 years old because I felt it was the right thing to do seeing as I had been going to church all my life.
Little did I know that I would get involved with the wrong crowds and become all the things that I told myself I wouldn't. I started drinking at 13 years old and soon started to fall away from gods hands. I wanted to see what was out there outside the church doors but trust me, I never found nothing. By the age of 15 I stopped what I was doing and began putting things right with god but little did I know that other things back way in the past started to return to me.. My dad. He would get angry so often and most of the time he would take his anger out on me as If I was to blame.
As soon as he left our household however things became to crash down infront of me, I felt lost.. alone and afraid. I also was getting panic and anxiety attacks quite a lot which scared me and I soon turned to self harming. It hurt to see how bad things I had gone, so one night I wept and I wept, I was ashamed of how low Id sunk and how far I was away from God, slowly after that however I had councelling at the church and outside and then finally restored my faith.
I have the scars and I also have some really bad childhood memories, but that is NOT going to stop me from praising the lord each and everyday. He is by me through my darkest times and the good and I am amazed how much my faith has grown.
I have confidence, self-esteem and I am happy.
God is amazing, he saved me from something which I once thought was unbreakable, he broke my chains and he can break yours to! I was almost jumping when I found out I had the opputunity to get baptised. I feel I have a bad past but that will never stop me from getting my future
I got saved by the lord when I was 12 years old because I felt it was the right thing to do seeing as I had been going to church all my life.
Little did I know that I would get involved with the wrong crowds and become all the things that I told myself I wouldn't. I started drinking at 13 years old and soon started to fall away from gods hands. I wanted to see what was out there outside the church doors but trust me, I never found nothing. By the age of 15 I stopped what I was doing and began putting things right with god but little did I know that other things back way in the past started to return to me.. My dad. He would get angry so often and most of the time he would take his anger out on me as If I was to blame.
As soon as he left our household however things became to crash down infront of me, I felt lost.. alone and afraid. I also was getting panic and anxiety attacks quite a lot which scared me and I soon turned to self harming. It hurt to see how bad things I had gone, so one night I wept and I wept, I was ashamed of how low Id sunk and how far I was away from God, slowly after that however I had councelling at the church and outside and then finally restored my faith.
I have the scars and I also have some really bad childhood memories, but that is NOT going to stop me from praising the lord each and everyday. He is by me through my darkest times and the good and I am amazed how much my faith has grown.
I have confidence, self-esteem and I am happy.
God is amazing, he saved me from something which I once thought was unbreakable, he broke my chains and he can break yours to! I was almost jumping when I found out I had the opputunity to get baptised. I feel I have a bad past but that will never stop me from getting my future