Being pregnant, and being totally alone, is by far one of the hardest things I've ever done. However, the Lord wouldn't have given me this trial, if he didn't know I can take it.
Had a tornado dream last night. There were dust devils as well. Apparently tornado dreams mean change, anxiety of upcoming stresses/events or turbulent relationships. But I am scared, yet drawn or fascinated by them in my dreams. Desiring to protect, keep safe from what is impending, but also it makes me feel alive watching them. Some are far away enough just to watch and still feel safe. Others are behind me, I try to outrun and take cover.
I think it is symbolic of my life right now. Trying to prepare myself for possible future stresses, trying to be one step ahead of financial stresses. Trying to fix my car before it breaks down. Trying to get control over my life. And seeing how I made it, I was prepared and it came and I overcame it. I was safe. And it makes me feel alive. The problem is that there is always another tornado. Maybe constantly outrunning them isn't the most productive. Hmm. Where's Freud when you need him?
I have taken leave of my senses. Pay no attention to anything I say. I know my decisions is probably the wrong one. Why am I doing it? I have no idea. What happened to me? Who am I?
The Lord leads"...you follow Me." John 21:22
I have taken leave of my senses. Pay no attention to anything I say. I know my decisions is probably the wrong one. Why am I doing it? I have no idea. What happened to me? Who am I?
Sounds like its time for some serious praying. I will pray for u too.I am not kidding around.
I should not do something I don't want to do or that I know is not right for me just because someone else is pushing me to do it. Seems simple enough, right? It's not.
I should not do something I don't want to do or that I know is not right for me just because someone else is pushing me to do it. Seems simple enough, right? It's not.
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Gabe, your signature made me smile. Thanks.
Join the club.I have taken leave of my senses.
No can do. We love you and are here to support and encourage. You are stuck with us.Pay no attention to anything I say.
If you are still breathing, then it is not too late to turn things around, seek forgiveness, if needed, repent, and seek direction, and allow the Lord to lead.I know my decisions is probably the wrong one. Why am I doing it? I have no idea.
You were reminded that you are human, and fallible?What happened to me?
A child of God(Jn 1:12), complete in Christ (Col 2:9-10), free from condemnation (Rom 8:1-2), God's temple (1 Cor. 3:16), to name a few....Who am I?
I should not do something I don't want to do or that I know is not right for me just because someone else is pushing me to do it. Seems simple enough, right? It's not.
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Gabe, your signature made me smile. Thanks.