Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

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I got a perfect score on my music theory test that I took earlier this week, woo hoo!

Olercia, I didn't know you would sell cheesecakes, that's awesome! I love anything with cream cheese lol.
 
I got a perfect score on my music theory test that I took earlier this week, woo hoo!

Olercia, I didn't know you would sell cheesecakes, that's awesome! I love anything with cream cheese lol.

Whenever I try to do something with music, the theory part is always fine...

it's just the audible part that causes any problems.
 
I got a perfect score on my music theory test that I took earlier this week, woo hoo!

Olercia, I didn't know you would sell cheesecakes, that's awesome! I love anything with cream cheese lol.
Ooh, you're studying music theory? :cool:

I seem to have the opposite problem with music; don't know a lick of theory, but the aural part comes relatively naturally.
 
Ah. Just went out and got taco bell and filled up my gas tank.
I think I have successfully matured to the state in which I no longer desire taco bell.
Nor can I fully eat a burrito without feeling like I just ate an alien space baby.

Should I go back to night shift.....hmm...
 
Ah. Just went out and got taco bell and filled up my gas tank.
I think I have successfully matured to the state in which I no longer desire taco bell.
Nor can I fully eat a burrito without feeling like I just ate an alien space baby.

Should I go back to night shift.....hmm...

And from now on I will never see a burrito the same way again... O.o

Men in Back's tentacle alien baby picture engraved in my mind alongside a big burrito.... dang...
 
I need friends. Tangible ones, not internet ones. Internet friends are great but, to be honest, they're all I have. I don't hang out with the people at my church. I don't have the ability to. Nobody's close enough to me.


I.

Am.

Alone.

That point was driven home today.



I'm not looking for advice right now.
 
I need friends. Tangible ones, not internet ones. Internet friends are great but, to be honest, they're all I have. I don't hang out with the people at my church. I don't have the ability to. Nobody's close enough to me.


I.

Am.

Alone.

That point was driven home today.



I'm not looking for advice right now.

I'm so sorry, Evie.
 
I need friends. Tangible ones, not internet ones. Internet friends are great but, to be honest, they're all I have. I don't hang out with the people at my church. I don't have the ability to. Nobody's close enough to me.


I.

Am.

Alone.

That point was driven home today.



I'm not looking for advice right now.

I'm sorry, Evie :( Internet friends can be awesome, but it's just not the same, I know. *hugs*
 
haha ya. that's how I feel about the situation.
there is always transportation you know metra, but the concert starts at seven. and I can already see it happening where traffic will be horrible. lol (I might as well get used to it, have a plan down or just say noes).

I would plan not to even bother with it. its Chicago.
 
My boss wanted to talk with me today. His bosses are wondering why I haven't turned in my mileage report for reimbursement. Answer: I don't have time.

He knows that our department (of 30) is short 6 people and that we have about 6 new hires.
He knows that with my immediate supervisor on vacation that some of the leads are doing more of the training than usual.
He knows that the office day I am supposed to get once a week hasn't happened in over a month because we are so short staffed and I am needed in the field.

So basically, he agreed with me that my daily and monthly reports regarding operations is a priority over filling in my mileage reimbursement. So is making sure that the newbies are trained correctly, since my sup has been complaining that several new people aren't being trained right and is only allowing certain of us to train the new hires.

So basically, I'm not in trouble with boss. He actually commended me and is going to tell his superiors on Monday that I have my priorities straight. Moreover, he promised me a paper day next week! My stress level went way down!

I still want my reimbursement money, though.
 
Back from Maui as of Thursday night. The closer I get to returning to "the regimen," the more real it feels that I'm back.

What an experience, though...
 
I don't want to hear people's opinions of me, but I really want to hear them. I want to be someone who does and doesn't care what other people think of me. I want to be so confident that I'm going the right direction that I don't need anyone to confirm it, but I want to hear confirmation that I'm doing something, anything, right.

My brain is a confusing place to be tonight. It's kind of neat, to just let it go wandering off down paths I normally steer it away from, but at the same time I'm sort of terrified where it might go next. I don't think I fully realized until now how carefully I have to control my thoughts, to keep my emotions and my words in check. Or maybe I have that backwards, maybe I control my words and emotions to keep my thoughts in line? I'm not sure how it all works, I just know I am constantly asking God to help me with it. To keep me from thinking poisonous thoughts and stop me from saying things I'll regret.

The trouble is, I don't always regret the things I should. Or...the things most people would, maybe. I don't know. It's hard to feel properly ashamed of myself when I'm just proud that I said what was really on my mind instead of bottling it up.

I think a lot of people don't know how to respond to things I say, which is totally understandable, because I say a lot of weird things.

These are the times when I miss my dad...he had a lot of problems, but he would have understood this kind of weirdness...because I got it from him.
 
I need friends. Tangible ones, not internet ones. Internet friends are great but, to be honest, they're all I have. I don't hang out with the people at my church. I don't have the ability to. Nobody's close enough to me.


I.

Am.

Alone.

That point was driven home today.



I'm not looking for advice right now.
I want to be your friend Evie, but you live so far away and I'm probably older than your dad.. plus, I'm not a girl. :( But seriously, you are going to be a great friend to some lucky person out there. I bet if you pray for a friend, God will bring one to you. I've heard it happened to someone already. I know what its like to not have any real life friends, since I don't either, but I've had friends in the past and I feel bad that you don't have anyone right now. I will pray that you find a friend.
 
By the way, I wasn't joking about wanting to be your friend. I mean I hope you don't think I said it as a joke. I know you'd be a great friend.

Does this sound kinda creepy? Just making a point. Ok I'll shut up now. :rolleyes:
 
Somedays just find you wrong footed... not many things can put me down... but there are somedays when you just need some time alone... just you and the Lord and that is just not possible cause there's just too much going on and you're needed everywhere... :(

Or maybe it's just the lack of sleep and too long runing on caffeine... but today I just needed "colo"... my mom's, the Lord's... I just needed it... but it's not meant to be...

So.. let's suck it up, smile and keep on going... all will be fine..
 
Plans for today:

Review tomorrow's lesson.
Prayer time.
Eat with the fam.
Go with the band to play at some church dealio this evening.

Yas.