Hey! I can't do much over the internet. BUT what I can do is this..
1. Have you ever accepted Christ into your heart as Lord and Savior?
2. Jesus died for you and rose again.. there's no other greatly love... than the Lord.
I just want to tell you, you don't have to cut yourself, you don't have to feel emotion pain, you can give it all to Jesus. The Lord said, give me your burden. Give it to Jesus, give Him your Load of heaviness, and in exchange, he'll give you peace, give you joy, and love. It is a great deal, and I know a good deal when I hear one!
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Today is the day of salvation, God came to heal the broken hearted.. and today Jesus wants to heal you, so give your life to the Lord, don't wait. Say it with me with your heart, meaning every word:
Dear Jesus, come into my life, I accept you today as my Lord and Savior, Lord I am hurt, you know my pain, you know my struggle, and I can't seem to handle it.. but someone told me, you will carry my burden, please Lord, carry it for me, I accept you today into my life, I believe you die for my sins and rose again, fill me with your Holy Spirit, and in Jesus name I pray. Amen.
Say that prayer with your heart, doesn't matter if you open your eyes or not ( I like to close my eyes but it shows humility) but believe in the Lord. After you have done that, I want you to find a Church, pray, and find a church, already got one? then I want you to get involved in your Church. Yes, allow God to work in your life, but you have to be willing to give up yourself for Him. So get involved in a Church. When I say involved I mean, working also. Cleaning the bathrooms, mopping, cooking, settling up chairs, going out with your Church to do work and activities. And when your are at home, I want you to pick up a hobby, start cleaning, start having a set of chores to do every morning, evening, and night. Keep yourself busy, and in your busy-buzz life, you will eventually start to notice, the more you give yourself to the Lord, the more you will stop your sinful habits.
This is your dear brother in Christ Jesus- Servant Hood.