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PropertyOfGod
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I'm really tired of Life. I feel as if I don't deserve to be here.I've had heartache since I can remember. And it's like you talk to some people but it doesn't really help. Satan wants to take me out yall. He wants me dead. And i have this blue small crate full of pills that i think about taking daily. I dont know whats wrong with me. The Lord has blessed me. But my mom died when i was 5 from lupus. Grandma raised me til i was 8 died from stroke. My two older sisters raised me. The 47 yr old died feom liver cancer in 6 months. And 56 yr old died in her sleep a yr and half later.they were my mom. I got 1 sister left and she needs heart transplant. Shes 47. WHY? My kids are 20..18..17..they act like they hate me. We sont communicate. They really dont talk to me. Everyone is angry all the time . no communication. I cant live like this.i cry EVERYDAY. I WANNA DIE EVERYDAY.