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annointedshepherd
Guest
August 3rd 2013
I walked in to the upper room church and i wanted the Love of God as worship went on i started to cry out God i want your Love i want your Love God crying saying show me thar your my father and i will serve you the rest of my life repeatdly for about 45 min just saying that and silent
well Pastor steve foss preached on the agope love of God and then we went into a time of intersession where i cried out to God saying i want your agape Love God and just asking for it and then He said to pray for another person to recieve it cause the Bible says to love your brother with agape love of God and as you pray that the agape love of God would come on you so my other pastor led me to a person that i could pray with and i prayed with Him didnt feel a thing and i kept crying out for God to fill Him with the agape love of God and i didnt feel a thing although people where having break throughs
and so finally my person stopped praying for me i didnt feel a thing and then i left and went balling my eyes out saying God why dont you love me i went to the rest room with a sense that i had failed God and i went and just kept crying and crying for about ten min. in the restroom and then i went back into the sanctuary
and i went in there the move of God was still there i sat down and still cried and finally it ended and i thought it was over but thats when it began
i went to melissa the person i was staying with at the time cause our church was in a confrence and so i went and she thought i had expierenced the love of God but i told her honestly that it was from heart break cause i wanted God to touch me and expierence His love well and that it didnt happen and that God had broken my Heart
well she asked me to wait and there was a sister she finally Got over to me and this women Got words of knowledge and she told me that God loved me and that my father had abandoned and that i felt abandoned which she was on point and only God knew that in my heart and that she said that God told her that God Loved me and that my father wasnt ever my real father that He was my FATHER THAT HE WAS MY FATHER!!!! and that if i was the only person on the earth He would have still died for me
and that i was also afraid of intamacy and she said that God said dont be afraid of intamacy and also that i had failed in preformance and not to feel that way because God has always loved me that im the apple in His eye
so i forgave my father and mother and the anger i had towards them and also forgave my self and know i know that God loves me because He sent this special encounter and i told Him that i would serve Him the rest of my Life so let this journey begin HALLELUYA I LOVE YOU FAHTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIMES A MILLION BILLION FOLD
I walked in to the upper room church and i wanted the Love of God as worship went on i started to cry out God i want your Love i want your Love God crying saying show me thar your my father and i will serve you the rest of my life repeatdly for about 45 min just saying that and silent
well Pastor steve foss preached on the agope love of God and then we went into a time of intersession where i cried out to God saying i want your agape Love God and just asking for it and then He said to pray for another person to recieve it cause the Bible says to love your brother with agape love of God and as you pray that the agape love of God would come on you so my other pastor led me to a person that i could pray with and i prayed with Him didnt feel a thing and i kept crying out for God to fill Him with the agape love of God and i didnt feel a thing although people where having break throughs
and so finally my person stopped praying for me i didnt feel a thing and then i left and went balling my eyes out saying God why dont you love me i went to the rest room with a sense that i had failed God and i went and just kept crying and crying for about ten min. in the restroom and then i went back into the sanctuary
and i went in there the move of God was still there i sat down and still cried and finally it ended and i thought it was over but thats when it began
i went to melissa the person i was staying with at the time cause our church was in a confrence and so i went and she thought i had expierenced the love of God but i told her honestly that it was from heart break cause i wanted God to touch me and expierence His love well and that it didnt happen and that God had broken my Heart
well she asked me to wait and there was a sister she finally Got over to me and this women Got words of knowledge and she told me that God loved me and that my father had abandoned and that i felt abandoned which she was on point and only God knew that in my heart and that she said that God told her that God Loved me and that my father wasnt ever my real father that He was my FATHER THAT HE WAS MY FATHER!!!! and that if i was the only person on the earth He would have still died for me
and that i was also afraid of intamacy and she said that God said dont be afraid of intamacy and also that i had failed in preformance and not to feel that way because God has always loved me that im the apple in His eye
so i forgave my father and mother and the anger i had towards them and also forgave my self and know i know that God loves me because He sent this special encounter and i told Him that i would serve Him the rest of my Life so let this journey begin HALLELUYA I LOVE YOU FAHTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIMES A MILLION BILLION FOLD
