Oh, about the way I came to believe, and the imputation of the Holy Spirit? I don’t know what to say, but, I was educated ONLY in the God of the Bible, and the Good News of the gospel of Jesus Christ..
I’m not trying to hurt anyone’s faith or beliefs, but there are many miracles that follow the imputation of the Holy Spirit. So many, that twenty-seven years later I am still beside myself.
It’s odd that someone posted “reminds me of Paul…” and when I tell I have a testimony, I say it is similar to Paul’s in the fact that I wasn’t seeking God, or even cared if he existed when I felt bad for what society would seem a “crack whore” when she spilled her heart out to me which included her testimony, in which caused me to realize I was wrong in my unbelief. That was enough for God, because he also took me up into what Paul calls heaven with a number attached to it. I call it eternity, and I feel the same exact way about the experience: there’s no description I can utter that can give it the glory it deserves. In eternity (at least from what I experienced) you become what your mind seeks and filters to experience, except it’s raw and angelic without filter. From my experience, eternity has no time frame(when I came back in my body I could of been “gone” for two minutes, or two centuries, and I wouldn’t of had a clue of the difference. I felt huge (like I was big enough to fill the entire realm of space in the molecular world, but the love I became(in which I would never be able to explain it with the glory it deserves) I felt so whole and complete, and, well, righteous.
Six and a half years later I picked up the Bible and my eyes were literally opened to understanding it for the truth it contained. I used to make fun of Christianity (similar to Paul) the irony on that is heavy in my life. To know how it feels to want people to stay out of my face with it, to now “woe is me if I don’t preach the gospel!”
Anyhow, I just wanted to say that I am convinced my life has been led and taught by the spirit of God over the last twenty seven years. I tell people that I’m the habitual Prodigal Son. I battle addiction issues, and I’m glad I did, because it helped me to discern the truthf from what the modern church teaches. I’m not a Calvinist, but I firmly believe that the Pauline Doctrine of Justification Solely by Faith is the true and correct doctrine of the New Testament. It’s not how I love God (and I whole heartedly do in disobedience even) but in the way he loves me. The Spirit led me to that fabulous revelation when I was feeling bad for cussing God when I got angry. I asked him to please forgive me and help me with my blind rage, and that was the answer I received.
Anyhow, I’m getting long winded but I just want to say in truth how the glory of God was revealed to me, and that I’m in no way trying to damage anyone’s faith or belief with it. Thanks for reading. God bless you all!
