I guess this should have gone in the praying request forum, should it?
Cause I need friends. So before I tell you my thoughts, honestly I would love anyone to write to me. I need someone to talk to.
I feel like I'm carrying the world on my shoulders.
I see the bad in this world,
From us being guilty of the refugees coming to our countries.
From us being in denial and victims of too little information:
From us being victims to having too much time to zone out and numb ourselves to see the world, and too little time to question our own government.
From us not thanking animals with souls who were forced to make our stomach feeling full and our conscious feeling empty.
From us the youth wanting to be loved, while worshipping the entertainment industry's idols, and getting sub conciously moral "wisdom" to sleep around, to live life like you only do it once.
From us chasing money with our leather shoes and glass ties, wearing paychecks like necklaces with diamonds clawed in the hands of the earth by African slaves.
From us, wearing clothes that has been made by Asian countries answer of an European school, sweatshops and buildings with suicide nets on it.
To us, not being able to do anything so we don't think about it.
And now I understand why we don't.
Cause honestly I feel suicidal.
I would never do it, what good is that?
I do also see the good things,
Like how the rain falls, and standing outside not caring if you get a cold, cause sunshine will come.
Like how i got to believe not only in God, as a metaphor or whatever pleases anyone, but also myself.
Like how I still have a grain of sand of hope that I will meet someone one day who can turn my eyes that are shaped as the earth, and colors like this star island, will transfer them into love.
Transferring my heart of brokenness into seeing "her" and then the biggest question, selfishly will be "how could God create something so beautiful as she?" And all my doubts about anything will go away.
This is to Her.. I think.
Cause I need friends. So before I tell you my thoughts, honestly I would love anyone to write to me. I need someone to talk to.
I feel like I'm carrying the world on my shoulders.
I see the bad in this world,
From us being guilty of the refugees coming to our countries.
From us being in denial and victims of too little information:
From us being victims to having too much time to zone out and numb ourselves to see the world, and too little time to question our own government.
From us not thanking animals with souls who were forced to make our stomach feeling full and our conscious feeling empty.
From us the youth wanting to be loved, while worshipping the entertainment industry's idols, and getting sub conciously moral "wisdom" to sleep around, to live life like you only do it once.
From us chasing money with our leather shoes and glass ties, wearing paychecks like necklaces with diamonds clawed in the hands of the earth by African slaves.
From us, wearing clothes that has been made by Asian countries answer of an European school, sweatshops and buildings with suicide nets on it.
To us, not being able to do anything so we don't think about it.
And now I understand why we don't.
Cause honestly I feel suicidal.
I would never do it, what good is that?
I do also see the good things,
Like how the rain falls, and standing outside not caring if you get a cold, cause sunshine will come.
Like how i got to believe not only in God, as a metaphor or whatever pleases anyone, but also myself.
Like how I still have a grain of sand of hope that I will meet someone one day who can turn my eyes that are shaped as the earth, and colors like this star island, will transfer them into love.
Transferring my heart of brokenness into seeing "her" and then the biggest question, selfishly will be "how could God create something so beautiful as she?" And all my doubts about anything will go away.
This is to Her.. I think.
