Brother Peeday, Our fine brother Paul went through many hardships,please look at 2 Cor 11:23-28!! Many here know of painful experiences in there life,for many here have sure had there share of hardships!! I also know how tough it can be upon us when loved ones suffer as great as we do!
Prayer seems to bounce off walls,and our feeling and emotions which we have trusted low so many years looks to deceive us once again! WE never think about our emotions or feeling doing this,because for so many years, many have become use to being lied to by them.Which usually leads to being able to lie to others as well!
We need God's full attention,but will not wait upon him long enough to get it! SEEK and you will find!( matt 7:7) I remember myself needing a job real bad,I was grumbling and complaining to the Lord about him meeting my needs!! I even reminded him of his Word in Phil 4:19!! I told the Lord that I would die here in my prayer closet, or you will answer me!!
1 day passed,2 days passed,on the 3rd day around 1am Holy Spirit sounded within me to ask me a question,how many hours do you work in a day? I answered 8 hours,and Holy Spirit said how many hours have you gone to actually look for work each day?? And why, oh why do you not remember my Word to you even before you look!!( Rom 8:14-15!!)
For all who are what?? allowing!!!!! Are you doing this??? I said I have spent perhaps a couple of hours each day looking.Holy Spirit then said,if one works 8 hours a day at a job,how many hours should one spend looking for work then?? SEEK and ye shall find,but how long you really seek,depends greatly on how soon you will find!
I came out of my prayer closet and told the Lord I would try this!! No he said, there is no try,Try is Rev 3:16!!) DO as my Word tells you to do!!!( James 1:22!!) Long story short brother within 2 weeks I had a real good job! I was able to help my family out as well!
At some time during our life my brother we will face a Goliath,we do not take our lives because of it,nor do we look to hide from the truth! What we DO is remember what the Lord has done before Goliath came to us!!( 1 Sam 17:32-37!!!!) A man acts like one!( 1 Cor 16:13-14!!)You are to old to baby( 1 Cor 2:5 and 1 Cor 4:20!)Do not be children in your thinking!!( 1 Cor 13:11 and 1 Cor 14:20!!) I love you brother,I am looking to preform what Jesus did to me at my young age in the Lord!
If you take your life the devil wins! Because our life is not our own to take!!( 1 Cor 6:19-20!!) There will be people who also will lose out because you were not there to tell them the truth I am telling you now!! One can repent of any sin save one!! Taking ones own life is not only the most selfish thing one can do,but also is the pinnacle of unbelief! ask Judas!! Judas believed at one time( Acts 1:17 says so!)
His place now that he made for himself is a place I sure would not wish to go to be with him!!( Acts 1:25!!) And there is no repentance from one who does this action! I am sorry, is to late,your gone already! So in love brother I encourage you and warn you.
I am so very thankful for how Jesus delivered me brother!! And being thankful and staying thankful is a proven fact that we will always be in HIS will!!( 1 Thess 5:18!!) For brother had I done what your thinking of doing,I would not be able to speak the truth in love to you now!! BE STRONG!!! Not just for you,but for those you love! My prayers and love dwell with you bro!
OR you can stay stuck in your self-pity pit and wallow in your feelings forever..
