I drove two hours to attend a ct on my granddaughters head today ; she's five months old.. ( suction used at birth on her head- concern of skull fusing correctly). I dumped out every single emotion that was roaming about in my head on my drive there ...at the foot of the cross.. in it's complete raw form... I held nothing back ... But not before thanking God for this test....my heart ached.... I could see the lion walking the hedgeline of my faith...Smiling , pacing , sometimes just standing there like a taunting bully, hoping I'd respond.... I turned my attention immediately to Jesus ... proclaiming as loud as I could above the lions roar "This is bigger than me, but not bigger than God, I do not understand why this is happening, but I know God knows , and i have confidence in what He's doing, it's simply Jesus carrying me at this
Point....
Ugly, thank you for posting this... I just walked in my house and in the quiet , this is the first post I read ....
a blessing from God working through you into the world... Reached me .. God is so Good!