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Tonight I am writing my first blog entry. I have to say its harder than it looks. I do not write because I feel I have anything that important to say or because I am spiritually "moved" to enlighten and guide. But rather I am writing as a recovering idiot. Yes, you heard correctly. Many years ago I fell into the trap of marrying a man who I believed was Godly because, well...he told me he was. He was going to be a preacher. His father was a preacher. His grandfather was a preacher. He seemed safe. And I needed safe. But I soon learned after our wedding I was living with an arrogant and self-righteous man. After years of his psychological abuse I was finally freed. His unfaithfulness got the better of him. He got careless. And rather than repent he tried to emotionally blackmail me into keeping his secret. Tonight I don't want to share the details of my story. Not yet anyway. But I want to you to know that if you are a recovering idiot like myself that you are not alone. One of the things that blows my mind about God is His ability to overrule our stupid, stupid, stupid decisions. It doesn't' mean we don't face consequences. Sometimes consequences that are lifelong. But His promise to work all things for our good is a seriously powerful promise. I am evidence of that promise. I hope that in the days ahead I will be an encouragement to you. That you will perhaps see that you are a treasure and not a mistake. That you are chosen and not abandoned. There is a purpose in your pain and God is in control. Hang in there. God adores you.
