Hello everyone,
I don't know if any of you remember me. I posted a prayer request in July as I was going through the worst time of life. I told you about my father who had sexually abused me and was now on a campaign to destroy and kill me in order to save his reputation, especially that he is a public personality/politician well known and feared in my country. I told you I had that thread deleted by one of the administrators because an acquaintance I had confided in and showed the thread to prove to him I was really going through something started showing it to some people for gossip.
I first want to thank you all again for your words of comfort and prayers during that time, they brought me so much clarity and hope. Towards the end of July I was asked to find another place to stay by the motel manager; in a few days of looking for help everywhere, I got into contact with a God-fearing man who had a place he put up for rent. I explained my situation, without giving him the details of the sexual abuse, and he agreed to let me stay for a little while without paying in advance but that I had to find ways to pay very soon.
Although I didn't have a cent on me, I was counting on money people owed me or money I had been promised by a friend who wanted to invest in my old business my father had made me stop to start working for him for free for the past two years, saying I owed him to work for him because of all the tuition money he spent on me, that he spent that money so I could help him after I was done with school. I was assured and took comfort in knowing I had money coming from many sources; however, it has been the most strange things happening with the people planning to give me back my money or send me money they promised to give me. Every time, the most bizarre events start happening that I never get the money. There have been so many failed attempts that are not short of mystical.
When I first started noticing it, I didn't want to accept it was that bad; I already knew my dad and his wife, like I had told you, resorted to witchcraft (voodoo) practices to completely annihilate me before death takes me away, and everything going before my eyes was clear, but I didn't want to accept that these practices are so powerful. I was forced to accept reality when a pastor I went to see for prayer spoke to me as she was praying and told God had revealed to her that I had been put on a witchcraft altar to curse me and my life, to destroy me completely.
With the guidance of the pastor, I have been going through a series of prayers to break the curses on my life. Please, I want to ask you to join me in my quest to be freed from these curses. Please pray for me. Sometimes I feel so beaten down, I feel like I just want to close my eyes and let go. I don't know how much I can't take. I have not other physical presence around me, sometimes I want to say I am alone in this world, but like the pastor told me I have to remember of the people praying for me and not say that anymore. My father forbade and threaten my siblings to never be in contact with me again. The devil that he is, who doesn't own a Bible or ever read it, who never goes to church, took a Bible, and made my sweet sibblings, children, put their hands on it and swear they would never get in contact with me or all the curses that he said would come upon them if they do will. So with that fear, I haven't had any contact with them for months. My father always isolated us from family and friends, we weren't allowed to talk to anyone, even on the phone. He didn't allow family or anyone to come to our house and we never visited them. So I don't really know people. Later in years when I found ways to make acquaintances, with the traumatism I have been dealing with all my life I was never able to form a strong connected relationship/friendship.
Added to your prayers, I want to ask for your help. I have been thinking of ways to get some financial help given every attempt I have made so far has failed, I thought I could put up a fundraising page. Please if I do, could you help me by sharing this page on your facebook page and encourage people you know to contribute? I don't know what else to do and I am losing my mind as I find myself homeless again. The wife of the God-fearing man asked me this past Tuesday to leave as they wanted to rent the place to someone who will pay. She said I owed them months and though they empathize with my difficulties, that I have to remember that they need to earn money too. She made me write and sign a recognition of debt that I owe them money and that I will pay in the next two weeks. I immediately called the pastor I was talking to, hoping she will offer me to stay at her place until I found another place to stay as she knows I have no money that I haven't eaten in days, but she didn't. I wandered for hours without finding a place to stay and finally got to a motel where the manager agreed to let me get into the room as long as I paid yesterday Wednesday, which I haven't done yet. I am jumping all the time fearing he is sending someone to ask me to leave and pay.
My goal since this big mess started at the end of June has been to leave the country, since I can't walk or show my face freely here as my father is looking to finish the job he started that night he tried to kill me. I was planning to use the money I was expecting from the different people promising to send me money to pay for my trip ticket and leave. I thought I would have been gone by now but I am still here, fearing for my life every day. Please, help so I can begin living again.
I don't know if any of you remember me. I posted a prayer request in July as I was going through the worst time of life. I told you about my father who had sexually abused me and was now on a campaign to destroy and kill me in order to save his reputation, especially that he is a public personality/politician well known and feared in my country. I told you I had that thread deleted by one of the administrators because an acquaintance I had confided in and showed the thread to prove to him I was really going through something started showing it to some people for gossip.
I first want to thank you all again for your words of comfort and prayers during that time, they brought me so much clarity and hope. Towards the end of July I was asked to find another place to stay by the motel manager; in a few days of looking for help everywhere, I got into contact with a God-fearing man who had a place he put up for rent. I explained my situation, without giving him the details of the sexual abuse, and he agreed to let me stay for a little while without paying in advance but that I had to find ways to pay very soon.
Although I didn't have a cent on me, I was counting on money people owed me or money I had been promised by a friend who wanted to invest in my old business my father had made me stop to start working for him for free for the past two years, saying I owed him to work for him because of all the tuition money he spent on me, that he spent that money so I could help him after I was done with school. I was assured and took comfort in knowing I had money coming from many sources; however, it has been the most strange things happening with the people planning to give me back my money or send me money they promised to give me. Every time, the most bizarre events start happening that I never get the money. There have been so many failed attempts that are not short of mystical.
When I first started noticing it, I didn't want to accept it was that bad; I already knew my dad and his wife, like I had told you, resorted to witchcraft (voodoo) practices to completely annihilate me before death takes me away, and everything going before my eyes was clear, but I didn't want to accept that these practices are so powerful. I was forced to accept reality when a pastor I went to see for prayer spoke to me as she was praying and told God had revealed to her that I had been put on a witchcraft altar to curse me and my life, to destroy me completely.
With the guidance of the pastor, I have been going through a series of prayers to break the curses on my life. Please, I want to ask you to join me in my quest to be freed from these curses. Please pray for me. Sometimes I feel so beaten down, I feel like I just want to close my eyes and let go. I don't know how much I can't take. I have not other physical presence around me, sometimes I want to say I am alone in this world, but like the pastor told me I have to remember of the people praying for me and not say that anymore. My father forbade and threaten my siblings to never be in contact with me again. The devil that he is, who doesn't own a Bible or ever read it, who never goes to church, took a Bible, and made my sweet sibblings, children, put their hands on it and swear they would never get in contact with me or all the curses that he said would come upon them if they do will. So with that fear, I haven't had any contact with them for months. My father always isolated us from family and friends, we weren't allowed to talk to anyone, even on the phone. He didn't allow family or anyone to come to our house and we never visited them. So I don't really know people. Later in years when I found ways to make acquaintances, with the traumatism I have been dealing with all my life I was never able to form a strong connected relationship/friendship.
Added to your prayers, I want to ask for your help. I have been thinking of ways to get some financial help given every attempt I have made so far has failed, I thought I could put up a fundraising page. Please if I do, could you help me by sharing this page on your facebook page and encourage people you know to contribute? I don't know what else to do and I am losing my mind as I find myself homeless again. The wife of the God-fearing man asked me this past Tuesday to leave as they wanted to rent the place to someone who will pay. She said I owed them months and though they empathize with my difficulties, that I have to remember that they need to earn money too. She made me write and sign a recognition of debt that I owe them money and that I will pay in the next two weeks. I immediately called the pastor I was talking to, hoping she will offer me to stay at her place until I found another place to stay as she knows I have no money that I haven't eaten in days, but she didn't. I wandered for hours without finding a place to stay and finally got to a motel where the manager agreed to let me get into the room as long as I paid yesterday Wednesday, which I haven't done yet. I am jumping all the time fearing he is sending someone to ask me to leave and pay.
My goal since this big mess started at the end of June has been to leave the country, since I can't walk or show my face freely here as my father is looking to finish the job he started that night he tried to kill me. I was planning to use the money I was expecting from the different people promising to send me money to pay for my trip ticket and leave. I thought I would have been gone by now but I am still here, fearing for my life every day. Please, help so I can begin living again.
But at the very least I would try to get you connected with a Believer who has a spare room. I'm surprised no one has offered to do that for you yet.
