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I've been reading over a few different threads in the Bible Discussion pages and one thing seems to stay pretty much the same:
No one has the exactly same beliefs and understandings of the Bible and Gods intentions.
As a believer subscribed to no particular religion; I feel like I'm kinda half saved. Saved in the fact that I love God and seek him for salvation. But half ****ed in that I haven't picked some sort of denomination to 'follow' like everyone else has and, therefore, have no real focussed support other than my local Baptist Pastor and, well, you guys (
).
The thing that's starting to sadden me is that I feel like I should become a Baptist. Or a Methodist. Or a Catholic. Or this. Or that. Or the other one. But which one? And how do I know which one is right? Or, at the very least, the MOST correct of them all? Mormons? They were started by an American and the actual denomination itself is less than what? 200 years old? Do I choose a religion based on its history and 'length of service'? Or do I go with the Catholics? Old school and they're also the largest in New Zealand? Surely member numbers or 'popularity' must count for something? However many hundreds of million Catholics around the world can't be wrong? Or what about being a Methodist? My entire family on my mothers side are Methodists.. Maybe I should keep it in the family?
It's a daunting task.
It's almost like betting on horses. I don't know which one will win. Do I put my money all on this one? Or this one? Putting money on all the horses won't work. I'll probably end up worse off that way. Maybe I shouldn't bet on any of them?!
So then what about no specific religion? How does that work? Does that mean I have the opportunity to be saved? But if I don't pick one, I'll fall short? There's a scary thought. Makes me want to join a particular religion just so I have at least some opportunity.
"What religion are you?"
"I dunno."
"Huh?"
"Well, I believe in God."
"What about Jesus?"
"Not yet. I'm sure I will. I have to meet him first."
"So that would cancel you out of being a Christian."
"Maybe I'm a Christian in waiting?"
"Do you read the Bible?"
"I don't trust it."
"What? That doesn't work! Why wouldn't you read the Bible?"
"For the same reason you don't as an Atheist: I don't trust it?"
"You're messed up."
"Tell me about it. Let's go get lunch."
Gambling is almost the perfect example for how I feel. It's like buying a Lotto ticket. Except the prize isn't $100mil. It's salvation. Each denomination has it's own set of numbers, but only one can win! If I don't buy a lotto ticket, then I'm almost certain NOT to win. So I definitely have to buy one. But which one?
It really is difficult. My real life friends are no help. They're all non-believers, Jews or Muslims. My Christian friends are Baptists, so they're biased. "Be a Baptist!". Maybe.
And then there's the question of: Why would God make it so hard to be a follower? If I become a Methodist, then I have to say that we have it right and everyone else has it wrong and it's my duty to try and save them. I then go and help three Catholic friends become Methodists. Judgement Day comes along and BAM! The Catholics are right. Not only have I ****ed myself, but I've also ****ed my three friends who, otherwise, would have been right. So I feel twice a bad.
Can I just be a believer? What if I don't want the label of 'Christian' or 'Methodist' or 'Lutheran' or 'Catholic'? Do I have to accept it? Will I be thought of as a traitor who sits in the Baptist church, listening and learning through service but when asked the question of "I didn't know you went to that Church. Are you Baptist?" I reply honestly "No. I'm not a Baptist."?
Look at that rant. I typed it as if I was pacing up and down the room talking at 100 miles an hour. Almost hitting falsetto every now and again in my voice. Help please?
No one has the exactly same beliefs and understandings of the Bible and Gods intentions.
As a believer subscribed to no particular religion; I feel like I'm kinda half saved. Saved in the fact that I love God and seek him for salvation. But half ****ed in that I haven't picked some sort of denomination to 'follow' like everyone else has and, therefore, have no real focussed support other than my local Baptist Pastor and, well, you guys (
The thing that's starting to sadden me is that I feel like I should become a Baptist. Or a Methodist. Or a Catholic. Or this. Or that. Or the other one. But which one? And how do I know which one is right? Or, at the very least, the MOST correct of them all? Mormons? They were started by an American and the actual denomination itself is less than what? 200 years old? Do I choose a religion based on its history and 'length of service'? Or do I go with the Catholics? Old school and they're also the largest in New Zealand? Surely member numbers or 'popularity' must count for something? However many hundreds of million Catholics around the world can't be wrong? Or what about being a Methodist? My entire family on my mothers side are Methodists.. Maybe I should keep it in the family?
It's a daunting task.
It's almost like betting on horses. I don't know which one will win. Do I put my money all on this one? Or this one? Putting money on all the horses won't work. I'll probably end up worse off that way. Maybe I shouldn't bet on any of them?!
So then what about no specific religion? How does that work? Does that mean I have the opportunity to be saved? But if I don't pick one, I'll fall short? There's a scary thought. Makes me want to join a particular religion just so I have at least some opportunity.
"What religion are you?"
"I dunno."
"Huh?"
"Well, I believe in God."
"What about Jesus?"
"Not yet. I'm sure I will. I have to meet him first."
"So that would cancel you out of being a Christian."
"Maybe I'm a Christian in waiting?"
"Do you read the Bible?"
"I don't trust it."
"What? That doesn't work! Why wouldn't you read the Bible?"
"For the same reason you don't as an Atheist: I don't trust it?"
"You're messed up."
"Tell me about it. Let's go get lunch."
Gambling is almost the perfect example for how I feel. It's like buying a Lotto ticket. Except the prize isn't $100mil. It's salvation. Each denomination has it's own set of numbers, but only one can win! If I don't buy a lotto ticket, then I'm almost certain NOT to win. So I definitely have to buy one. But which one?
It really is difficult. My real life friends are no help. They're all non-believers, Jews or Muslims. My Christian friends are Baptists, so they're biased. "Be a Baptist!". Maybe.
And then there's the question of: Why would God make it so hard to be a follower? If I become a Methodist, then I have to say that we have it right and everyone else has it wrong and it's my duty to try and save them. I then go and help three Catholic friends become Methodists. Judgement Day comes along and BAM! The Catholics are right. Not only have I ****ed myself, but I've also ****ed my three friends who, otherwise, would have been right. So I feel twice a bad.
Can I just be a believer? What if I don't want the label of 'Christian' or 'Methodist' or 'Lutheran' or 'Catholic'? Do I have to accept it? Will I be thought of as a traitor who sits in the Baptist church, listening and learning through service but when asked the question of "I didn't know you went to that Church. Are you Baptist?" I reply honestly "No. I'm not a Baptist."?
Look at that rant. I typed it as if I was pacing up and down the room talking at 100 miles an hour. Almost hitting falsetto every now and again in my voice. Help please?