I remember when I first tried to share my testimony the elders called me into a private conference after the meeting and were concerned about me because no one understood a word I had said and I am not referring to my pronunciation. The way I look at it, we speak from the abundance of our heart and if you haven't ever spoken before it is reasonable to expect the first things coming out of your mouth is the mud and other stuff in the pipes. But the more you speak the more it is like the water flowing through those pipes cleans it out.I have to b honest , I'm not very good at talking to non believers about my faith . By nature , I'm a deeply private person , only happy to give out information about myself when I feel like it and that's not very often . I'm quite open on here because , it's not in person , it's just in text . I'm also a person who has very deep emotions , which I hate to share and , my faith is a very emotional subject to me .
I can't preach to some one , anyone , without becoming emotional and I hate becoming emotional in front of other people , all except my husband . I wish I could b cool and calm and remember the exact Bible verse I need etc when I talk to people about the Truth , but I can't . When I have tried to talk about it , I feel as if I'm exposing my very soul to a complete stranger and it just overwhelms me emotionally .
My usual response , if and when some one asks me about my faith is , to offer to help them read through the Bible , that's where I point people , to the Bible , probably because that's where I started on my journey . I never asked a person about their faith or about God or Jesus , I just went straight to the Bible . I don't trust anyone's word for anything , but I trust the Bible because that's God's Word . Maybe that's why I'm no good talking about it , me and my faith . I can talk about the Bible but not what my faith means to me or , how and why I believe , nothing like that . It's just so deeply personal to me that I find it extremely difficult to articulate without becoming emotional and , I hate people seeing me b emotional .
So , if u want to talk about the Bible , I'm happy for that but if u want to know about my faith on a personal level , I just find it to b very personal and too emotional to b able to articulate in any way that would b at all helpful to anyone else .
However, I have never regretted focusing on my faith being experiential, rather than theoretical.
I know a brother and have known several brothers like this before, they speak to people about the Lord every single day. I find that hard to do, not my personality. But I do post every single day on the internet. Also I am a Gideon and once a month I go out with two or three other brothers and speak the gospel to about 500 people and distribute New Testaments. It is a lot easier to talk to someone when you are offering them a free New Testament. Jesus said His burden is light and His yoke is easy, I don't think he forces us to be something we aren't, rather I think because we are different we reach people in a variety of different places. It is like plants, some grow in some places and others grow in different places.
There is a brother in the Gideons camp I am in. His health has been very poor this year, hard for him to leave his house. But he calls many people every week and as a result he is one of the most fruitful members of our camp even though he is homebound. While he can call people all day long, I hate to use the telephone.