well let me tell you... it's something I've been trusting God more and more with... the last six months I've been doing nothing but coming into a deeper relationship with God is in my life... insurmountable tests.. Dad had a brain tumor ,healed, mom had breast cancer, healed, grandbaby just had a ct of her head because the doctor said there were visible signs of skull not fusing correctly , Everything normal... son has gone from drug addiction to holding bible studies in he and his wifes home... in school straight A's... God means what He says... our confidence in Him is important, hand him something "knowing" his promises are not just made for someone else they are made for us , he will move mountains... I only knew about God but really, I didn't "know" Him... I didn't realize how little I knew Him until the first trial came along and really handed the whole thing over to Him... it has nothing to do with my ability, it has everything to do with Gods... I've let go more and more and let God have more and more... He really does mean it when He tells us " cast every burden upon me" or do you not know that I am God? I share this to expose my own stubborn will and how for so many years I claimed I was a Christian but didn't have a stinking clue who God really is... he is alpha, omega, author and finisher of everything.. He brings us to a trial to deepen our dependence in Him.. well some of the trials he's brought me through in the last year have certainly certainly deepened my dependence in Him... I will stand and say.... He is not a man that He should lie... when going through the trials this year, it was no doubt fun , but he has certainly brought me to a place and built up my faith and belief in all that He has done through it... he wants the first of everything.. Emotions, thanks, praise and honor in what He can do, it is written "Who is man that you pay him your mind?" in all the reports of cancer, reports of bad cells, bad labs .. Etc... it was like a written test before me... " WHO told you there was cancer, WHO told you bloodwork is bad? WHO? I see Adam and eve in the garden as I type this and the words God said to them... WHO told you you ". it was in those very words" WHO told you"... that for the first time my wayward thinking went from what man can do to what God can do all by Himself without the help of man... yes I believe God "uses people to do certain things" but God spoke the world into existence... who am I to think he can't speak cancer or illness away?.... Jesus only said a "word" and many were healed... he didn't use anyone or any instrument to do it ... His belief and trust was in God Alone... Have no idea why all this came out but something said "now" is the time to say something .... I am no one to go against who God really is ... I believe In His ability Alone... So this is me, not hiding who I am in Christ ...