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I have a muscular dystrophy called Limb Girdle (LGMD2i), and I get just weaker and weaker. I have lost most of my ability to walk, my breathing is affected, arms and shoulders are getting weaker and now I can hardly lift anything. Back and abs are a chapter by them selves. I can't do what I am trained to do professionally, but have had to find another profession. I work, and I serve the Lord. I live alone with my beautiful service-dog and love my work, house and friends. I try to rejoice in the Lord, but sometimes life is just too tough to handle. The future terrifies me. I know I will get weaker and to be more dependent on care-givers... I really don't like the idea of facing that.
Anyway. I keep on praying for healing. And people pray for me. I have believed for healing numeral times. Over many years. I am convinced that this time it is going to happen. I have had Christian "friends" making me and my healing their project. When it doesn't happen, they leave. I have had other "friends" telling me I am possessed, and that's why healing doesn't happen. A preacher told I had sin in my life blocking the healing.
Yes. I am a sinner. And I repent my sins. And believe I am forgiven in Jesus' name.
I believe I will be healed. The question is when. It might not be before the day we get glorified bodies in the rapture or when God will take me home. But I have to live with faith and hope of healing. Otherwise I don't know how I could manage to go on. I am happy people are praying for me. But please don't blame me when it doesn't happen. It is not up to us how and when. We have to humble ourselves and just keep on serving, praying, praising and following Jesus. I need a wheelchair to do so, but still Jesus is the love of my life and I love to follow him.
I just wanted to know... how does other people in need of healing cope with not getting healed? And how should we respond when healing doesn't happen?
Anyway. I keep on praying for healing. And people pray for me. I have believed for healing numeral times. Over many years. I am convinced that this time it is going to happen. I have had Christian "friends" making me and my healing their project. When it doesn't happen, they leave. I have had other "friends" telling me I am possessed, and that's why healing doesn't happen. A preacher told I had sin in my life blocking the healing.
Yes. I am a sinner. And I repent my sins. And believe I am forgiven in Jesus' name.
I believe I will be healed. The question is when. It might not be before the day we get glorified bodies in the rapture or when God will take me home. But I have to live with faith and hope of healing. Otherwise I don't know how I could manage to go on. I am happy people are praying for me. But please don't blame me when it doesn't happen. It is not up to us how and when. We have to humble ourselves and just keep on serving, praying, praising and following Jesus. I need a wheelchair to do so, but still Jesus is the love of my life and I love to follow him.
I just wanted to know... how does other people in need of healing cope with not getting healed? And how should we respond when healing doesn't happen?