...it is taking all of my strength to wait for my prayers to be answered, Im at the point of asking God to take me,but he doesnt.
Im sure she is being coached.
Part of her disorder is that those with it turn on the ones they love the most in the world. Part of me is honored by this, and part of me wishes it wasnt so,
She used to be model child, straight As,honor roll,very loving and giving and sharing. She was quite protective of me as well. I dont know where she went, she still looks like my child, but all of the good seems to have dispappeared in her, I was always a great Daddy.
The problem is Im breaking down, losing my mind and my heart is broken.
why isnt my big prayer answered yet and when will it be?
she has always been my world.
I know I shouldnt try and rush God and he has perfect timing,but Im falling apart with this.
Father,
I know I ask much - I cant help but wonder what is taking this so long. I know you can do the impossible and have done much for me in the past, and Im eternally grateful. I need her. Im begging you. trust me again.n Jesus's name I ask this. Amen and thank you.
I discern many things happening here. Multiple things the Lord knows all about. Your marriage and your self are still there waiting for God to walk ahead of you in growing you up. But suffice it to say, we have to learn to make room for God - to give God "elbow room." Things accumulate in our lives on different fronts and we begin to get frustrated and anxious. We then calculate and estimate, and say that this and that will happen, and we forget to make room for God to come in as
He chooses. God may have His will come in a way you are not looking for. That is the way to make room for Him...Expect Him to come, but do not expect Him only in a certain way. It sounds as if you are clear in your spirit on certain things about God the Holy Spirit has shared with you, yet you are driven to ask for a certain outcome; not immediately obeying Him. Guard your heart against this; and trust in Him alone; not His blessings.
I know I begin to doubt God's character when I pray for tasks equal to my own powers instead of praying for power equal to God's will. Seek His face on these things and He is there already at work in them. Ask that His will be done with confidence knowing He will hear your prayers and ours according to His purposes and intentions in this matter.
We have to pray, then, with our eyes on God, not on the difficulties. When we do this, confidence returns, and doubt fades away completely regardless of the outcome. For we know the Character of God relationally. Our faith is deliberate confidence in the Character of God whose ways we may not understand at the time.
God would have you realize His sovereignty. We are apt to tie God up in His own laws and allow Him no free will. You have developed an almost legal argument as to why you are good enough to have your prayers answered. And I believe you mean to be humble; but by doing that we say we know what God will do, or should do - And suddenly He upsets all our calculations by working in unprecedented ways; just when we expected He would do a certain thing, He does the opposite. You know from experience now, as do I, that there are unexpected issues in life, unexpected joy when we looked for sorrow, and sorrow when we expected joy, and in all those experiences God is asking us to learn to say, "All my expectations are from Thee!"
"Father - We ask Your glory to be shown in this situation. We ask for healing and reconciliation as well as family members. We ask for You to give him the ability to forgive not as a human can forgive, but as You forgave him from his sins; and as You are now living in Him thru righteousness. Father we praise You for Your Character and for Your almighty power. We ask that You intervene to accomplish that which is your purpose and intention. We thank You for giving heed to our prayers in regards to his daughter and family life, and we ask you to do as You will for you know best the right answers in all of these details...in Jesus' name I pray - Amen."
To the broken in heart - Jesus will draw near my friend, stay encouraged in Christ.